avatarJenn M. Wilson

Summary

The author discusses personal contentment with a new partner, Jeremy, which has unexpectedly reduced the urge to write due to a lack of angst from past relationships.

Abstract

The author of the article expresses a period of personal happiness and stability, primarily due to a new romantic relationship with Jeremy. This happiness has led to a decrease in the author's typical writing output, as previous writings were often fueled by emotional turmoil and life challenges. The article is presented as a candid and unedited reflection, with the author acknowledging a shift in their usual pattern of finding inspiration through difficulties. The author is pleasantly surprised by the absence of red flags in the relationship and is planning to have a 'Define the Relationship' conversation after Halloween. Despite the positive developments, the author admits to feeling somewhat bored at work and is adjusting to the newfound contentment, which has historically been an unusual state for them.

Opinions

  • The author is uncharacteristically happy and stable in their current relationship, which is a departure from past patterns.
  • This happiness has led to a decrease in the author's writing, as they typically draw inspiration from personal struggles and emotional distress.
  • The author has a positive view of Jeremy, noting no significant red flags and a contrast to the acrimonious relationship with their ex-husband.
  • There is an anticipation of a 'Define the Relationship' conversation, indicating the author's interest in solidifying the relationship's status.
  • The author expresses a sense of boredom at work, possibly due to the lack of emotional fuel that previously drove their writing.
  • There is an underlying anxiety or expectation that things might go wrong with Jeremy, reflecting the author's guarded optimism.
  • The author's relationship with Jeremy is still in a delicate phase, with the author taking a cautious approach to avoid jeopardizing it.

Being Happy Means I Have Nothing To Write

Uh…I’m kinda boring

Photo by Lesly Juarez on Unsplash

This isn’t a fancy article for a publication. This won’t be proofread. There are loads of typos. It’s just a raw dump of what’s been in my brain for sanity’s sake. Maybe the content will eventually fuel a formal submission, but for now…this isn’t it.

Dear Diary…

I have a handful of Medium stories halfway written. It’s harder to write these days since I only prattle and babble at night. Maybe my articles are fueled by a lack of sleep. When I have my kids, I’m so exhausted after putting them to bed that I can barely squeeze in a workout.

Lately, when I don’t have my kids, I’m with Jeremy.

Wait, I wrote that wrong.

I’m with Jeremy. That’s better.

This is the first time I haven’t itched to break up with someone. I haven’t found any red flags, other than the acrimonious relationship with his ex-wife. She’s getting married so I don’t consider her a threat.

Dude makes me happy. Even when something dumb happens with my ex-husband, I’m not seething for days or sobbing on the couch.

I lack the typical angst I feel when something goes wrong. You know, my typical life. Without ongoing angst, I don’t feel the urge to write.

Deep down, I’m waiting for things to go awry with Jeremy. I’ve decided to wait until after Halloween for the DTR (Define the Relationship) chat. Until then, my brain assumes this is a delicate situation.

Don’t charge the deer in the forest. Move slowly or else you’ll spook it.

And so…here we are. Me barely writing, bored as fuck at work, and head over heels for a fantabulous man that I’m aching to be my boyfriend.

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