Before Giving up, Take a Break to do Nothing but Eat and Sleep
The last days were particularly exhausting: project deadlines, term papers and exams created a mountain of stress that I wasn’t able to let go. I had to leave and find a place to rest.
I decided to visit my uncle and his family for 5 days. My uncle and his wife were working most of the time, so I spend the time with my cousin who was on vacation. He is 16, still in highschool. I have forgotten how cool it was to be a teenager able to eat, watch TV, read and sleep all the time without worrying about anything at all.
Paradoxically, when I was this age I had the pressing ambition to leave the nest and fly the winds of life all by myself. I used to volunteer for NGO and write for a local newspaper. I was doing everything for fun and didn’t have to worry much about anything.
Now it’s different. Of course, I love the independence I got and the opportunities coming with it. However I sometimes miss this time when I didn’t have to worry about caring myself because somebody else was doing it for me (my parents).
I understand these young people who stay at their parent’s place for a very long time because the outside world is scary. Each day is a fight where I have to study and learn so in the future I could get a “bright future”.
I often wonder what is this “bright future”. It’s probably something like being free to do what you want, having food and shelter to sustain yourself, and being surrounded by people you can love and trust. It shouldn’t be hard to reach this bright future, problem is when you don’t know what you want to do.
What do I want to do?
Even if some people already have the answer, they will just follow the social pressure whispering “go to college and graduate”. Rare are those sure enough about their ambition to go against the crowd and their parents’ will.
We are never sure about what we want to do and we often change our plans. Therefore, the bright future is impossible to define unless you only consider the food and shelter.
I came to the conclusion that I should try to put my ambition as high as possible because by jumping at the moon I can only fall into the stars. However targeting the moon is hard and I often want to not try anymore and grab the first shooting star passing by. Should I do that? That’s always the question I ask myself when I am exhausted. Should I choose the easy way?
Now that I am independent and free of any parents’ ambition I can make this choice.
Taking a rest with my relatives was an opportunity to become self aware of my wants and take the good decision. After watching movies, going on walks and relaxing I somewhat got bored and finally decided to go back to my place to fight again and work on my various projects.
To conclude: when you are exhausted and doubt about your life, take a break, find a place where you can rest your mind and body, stay there until you get bored, then take a decision. It doesn’t matter how long the break lasts, the most important is the quality of your final decision.
