Learning to Meditate AGAIN

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When I was deep in my depression and suicidal behaviours, I couldn’t do much. I depended on my husband and sister to guide me out. I promised to listen to them and whatever they sent me.

I would implement whatever the experts told me to do to get out of this never-ending depression that was ruining my life.

My husband would sit me down and talk about things he learned. From Earl Nightingale to Joe Dispenza. Through Joe Dispenza and his books, I was convinced that I needed to try meditation. I had done it a few times in the past and hated it. I had no patience for it.

Sitting still with my messed up thoughts was not pleasant and trying not to think at all was like trying to close an overflowing dish cupboard.

But this time I did it for my husband. I saw the testimonials and they motivated me. I started with 1 minute of meditation. That was easy. I increased the time to 5 minutes.

Some days I didn’t want to do it at all. So I did other things while the guided meditation played in the background. (Like playing an easy game on the phone. This was rare but it helped me get used to meditation on days I would have skipped it.)

After a while, I did it for 10 minutes and then 15 minutes. I basically mediated regularly for 3months without a break and then bam nothing. Life happened. My in-laws came to stay with us. My schedule changed.

I stopped meditating. I missed it and tried to get back to it but I couldn’t. And honestly, I felt like I didn’t need it anymore.

Until a few days ago. I was reading my own article and realized that many of the things I had accomplished while doing just 5 minutes of meditation every day were gone. I lost my patience.

I decided a few days ago that no matter what, I will meditate for 5 minutes. After making the bed and before cleaning my room.

My morning routines change every few months. But some things stay consistent like making the bed and then cleaning my room for 2 minutes only.

So the first step in establishing our habits is creating systems that help us. I found this great app a few months ago:

Balance. Here’s the link:

The best part: They’re offering a free year to all new members. A whole year!

Why I loved it:

There are many meditation apps to choose from, but Balance may be the best one to simulate having a personal instructor – someone who can monitor our progress and guide us. The app provides a customized meditation plan.

The app teaches nine specific meditation techniques that offer different ways to learn and grow personally. You’ll try some mix of breath focus, body scan, labeling, loving-kindness, visualization, awareness, spotlighting, breath control, and innovation, depending on your objectives, comfort, and skill level.

And there’s are many more amazing features.

Authors note: This is my genuine experience, not an ad. The link is a referral, but it does not do anything for me.

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