An Open Letter to My Beautiful Mother.

Dear Mum,

I hope that the internet does its thing and you read this letter. There are so many things I want to say, but I cannot only say it to myself. Over the years, we have grown distant, and it pains me to admit that we have become estranged. I don’t want our relationship to be this way, consider this letter as me extending an olive branch, it’s fully up to you if you want to take it.

I miss my best friend. Cups of tea and laughs in the back garden. I cherish those moments and would love to make more. You brought me into this world, and for that, I will always be willing to mend our relationship and put the fire out on our burning bridges. I treasure the memories of the past and I would love to bring those memories into the present.

The past 6–7 years have been a relentless struggle. I admit, I was not an easy child. In no way would I ever attack your style of parenting, you cared for me as well as you could and I couldn’t ask for any more from you. But like my relationship with many people, our relationship has broken down to the point where it feels like my mum has left my life. I understand that misunderstandings and disagreements happen, but this rift is tearing me apart inside. But I want to believe. I want to hold on to the hope that we can reconcile. I say this as I write this letter with teary eyes. I miss you, Mum.

I want to rebuild our relationship, but I must admit that I don’t know where to start. I fear that my efforts will be met with resistance or judgment. However, I am willing to take that risk because I love you, and I want us to heal together.

Perhaps we can start by sitting down and having an honest conversation. Let’s open our hearts and minds to truly understand each other’s perspectives. I promise to listen without judgment, and I hope you can do the same. I want to put in the effort to fix our family, and I hope you would want that too.

Both of us need to acknowledge the past, however painful it may be. I am ready to hold my hands up and admit past mistakes, and I pray that you are ready to do the same. There are things I need clarity on and I know that you need clarity from me. I am not looking to place blame or rehash old wounds, but rather to find a way to move forward. We cannot ignore the past. I want to learn from our past and create a stronger, healthier bond. I reiterate I miss you so much, Mum.

As I reflect on our relationship, I want you to know that I forgive you for any hurtful moments, just as I hope you can forgive me.

Nobody is perfect, and I don’t want you to think that I expect that from you, I just want my mum back. I know it won’t be easy, and it may take time, but I am willing to put in the effort. I want us to find our way back to each other, to rekindle the love and affection that once bound us so tightly.

I hope you can find it in your heart to give our relationship another chance. Thank you for taking the time to read this letter. I look forward to the possibility of a renewed connection and the opportunity to create new memories together.

With love and hope,

Your Luke x