Ready to “Be Open”
A new morning for an old approach
The beginnings of a new understanding of old odds
Author: Merticaru Dorin Nicolae
Hint: For “atmosphere,” you can listen to the music of this clip while reading…
I was finishing the three years of my spiritual training cycle, turning 21, coming of age...
The party had just ended, and it was the morning of another election. Before this step, everything was too serious to withdraw, to accept the idea of a night as a “good counselor."
From his 48 existences, he drew many conclusions. Maybe too many... But he still felt some questions related to two past cycles.
Pride, a famous magistrate from the end of the 19th century, versus Serenity, the beauty of his last existence, from the end of the 20th century, as a “conclusion” that will be initiated by me, Aegis, from this moment, at the end of the 21st century...
The energy of Themis, the ancient goddess of cosmic order and natural laws, Eormenwyn of justice, balance, and cosmic order in the old Saxons, Freyja of justice, fertility, and love in Viking Asgard, was found in his every energy cell, in his every pore; in his young skin of now, in every gesture of presence.
Resuming the report about myself, as if ending the cycle of a new life, I was stuck here again and again…
When it was Pride, she killed herself; when it was Serenity, she got too involved and was killed. Like another kind of suicide, The reason is the “written” or “personal” justice of those times. Far different from the justice of these times, when it is Aegis.
Suicide like Pride wasn’t a problem... He was just disappointed, even angry, that he left too soon. By choosing to die, he chose to come back later and continue to face the issues that troubled his soul.
How sad he was at what he did, wasting his time by leaving early.
He had set off on the path of law, idealistic, wanting to help people and justice. But that cost a lot of money.
The parental farm did not produce nearly enough money. I hated farming, cows, and pigs.
And it started making money, questionable or not. The important thing was that he always kept his soul pure, untouched by major mistakes.
And he reached the magistracy, wanting to fight for the reform of the system, primarily helping farmers. The system was wrong.
It was then that he discovered his pleasure in being around influential people, being able to manifest power alongside them, but constantly fighting for what was becoming less and less of his original goal.
Even a simple fine that could not be paid sent people to prison or attracted death in various forms. Especially for souls who do not want to commit the crimes of those caught “in the system”.
He lost his direction. But not that of being a magistrate... That of being a manifest soul, a human...
Full of the energy of temperance, moderation, and responsibility, even as initial goals...
Direction lost for good when his then-parents were convicted regardless of his efforts... The system was far too miserable, far too vindictive… And Pride had disturbed too many structures...
His pain since then has been unbearable… For this failure, he chose to leave earlier than usual, carefully preparing his return…
After two reincarnations, in which he resolved several of his conflicts, he returned to the body of Serenity.
How rewarding it was to return to Earth’s energy... If this material area had not been so beautiful, with the flowers, the trees, and the life here, he would never have returned. But it felt like he had recharged his batteries.
Or maybe this joy was due to the chance to return as Serenity, a wonderful woman. Perfect body, above-average intelligence, rich family, carefully chosen to give her anything she could want... Everything seemed perfect…
But the commitment to his arrival in a new incarnation could not be avoided. He knew that he risked becoming someone else, something different from his true soul.
And, above all, not to be corrupted by power again…
The power of money was known as Pride and it had failed. Now he was dealing with an immensely greater power: the strength of the desire of those around her.
Initially, she had returned to the desire to feel important in the community where she existed, to rise above others, and to be admired.
Pride, who was so delighted to dominate women sexually, making conquests without attachment, supercharged his manifestation as Serenity.
And he quickly discovered Pride’s main problem: that if he didn’t exert his power over those around him, they would quickly control Serenity.
His circles of influence and the power structure in the society in which he operated allowed him access to the most important levers of power.
But the power of physical attraction was far beyond any imagination…
The power of those who could be lured like this, the false sense of security and possession that they benefited from such a body and such a personality as Serenity’s, made everything come naturally...
His memories as a magistrate helped her plan her steps perfectly, dominate without weakness, manipulate circumstances, etc. And this, for just a few moments of “possible” sex but with phenomenal gains for the interests of those around her, which he once wanted to help them...
And she no longer allowed herself to be lured by money, prestige, and power.
The fact that he always felt more like a man helped enormously. But when he accepted being a woman and experienced true love, he made a mistake. It was the mistake of that existence.
The “forsaken” could no longer be tempered or controlled, and the end came from the only person who truly loved her, the one who would become her husband.
Not from those who had become dependent on her beauty, influence, presence, and discussions with and about her, but from the one who had made her dependent on him, on Victor...
She was only 32 years old when she was killed. The unwritten social rules brought this existence to an end but closed any contradiction in life when the legal rules drew my gesture of departure…
Now I have no more debt. Everyone in this time and dimension remembers their past lives.
Those who want it... Many do not want to remember, thinking that it is much better to learn to write on a blank board than to know in advance what might happen to you and what will be asked of you because of what you did or didn’t do before…
But even more, like me, Aegis, has chosen to know the mistakes of the past, avoiding the pitfalls of this new life… A new existence that must be taken seriously... For now or for later...
Now I know that you don’t have to try to solve a conflict with a new approach, preoccupied with making up for the past for the wrongs we’ve done and being so preoccupied with what we’ve done.
Everything will adjust itself through what we were Even if you chose not to remember...
I prefer to remember, though! Now I know why I will live my love with Victoria, the one with the help of which I will live my “lost” love.
Yes, I am disturbed by another perception, though. Our identity is eternal. It does not leave us, regardless of the bodies on the path we choose, despite our current position.
Will Victoria be just as jealous?!?
Anyway, I haven’t clarified yet if my present has changed my past or if I am the result of my past.
Merticaru Dorin Nicolae
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