Your Wish, My Will
And the pain between
For her but not about her.
I’ll keep my word Against my will, Uphold your wish Above my own, Hug my silence And hide my tears. But when you sleep I’ll hold you tight While yet I can.
I understand Your dreadful choice To leave our life On your own terms, Not waste away On poisoned time, Yet hate it still, Trading your pain For mine, forever.
I’m sure you‘ve known For some time now, And tried so hard Not to tell me, Or wanted to Yet just could not, But fifty years Is time enough To see through you.
Are you as scared As my mirror shows, It’s hard to tell And hurts like hell, More so when you Smile, eyes twinkling As if to tease Or plan mischief Like all is well.
Could you forgive Me for sharing Your last secret, Because I know The children won’t Forget they were Kept in the dark And I’m the one Who’ll face their pain.
But I won’t tell, For no reason Other than love. And I promise Your grandchildren Will know your tale, Learn of your strength, Wisdom and wit. Haunt me though and All bets are off.
