You’ll Never Touch the Sun, Start Experiencing the Light Instead

Embrace the ups and downs to convert nervosity to satisfaction

If there is an end to the writing journey, I don’t want to see it. I find the process itself so exciting every day that I compete with myself.

By acting like the person I want to become, I’m getting to the version of my future-self slowly. But it is like evolution. It is so slow you can’t detect any change at the moment.

Writing journey is no different

I am at that stage of my journey where I often struggle with emotional clarity about how to further progress in your journey. Am I getting late every day? Am I not putting enough work?

I ask this question myself every day, “Why don’t I write with the same motivation as I did in the initial days?”

The journey will convert nervosity to satisfaction

Is timing everything? Or is the mindset that can change the experience of a journey? Sure, it is the latter because the thinking is in our full control. Timing can depend on external factors too.

I wake up every day intending to write at least one blog. But what happens is I sleep late after publishing the blog in the night. Often after 11:59 PM. Then I rationalise for at least putting in the effort. I’ve even had five days writing break because of this.

But when I think about the satisfaction I get from hitting the “publish” button; I realised the feeling of happiness was once disguised as “nervosity” and “anxiety”. It took four months to convert the nervous hit I used to get from sharing my work with the world.

Even if the learning is small, magnify it

The shift of feeling from “nervosity” to “satisfaction” means every stage of our journey is in sequence. The direction depends on how much we learn from our past experiences. Now you know why you’re nervous in the starting. It is because you’ve zero experience.

But what if the learning factor is more important? You can always emphasise, magnify and prioritise learning at the start of a journey. That’s how I studied a lot about only writing because I already had a lot to share but wanted to know more about the process, how to communicate effectively and get the right message in the right tone.

When it comes to a creative career, motivation builds with action. It is not the other way around. A lot of advice about stick to your goals is the same: stick to your goals. Take actions. See where they take you.

Takeaways

I am not the idea machine I used to be in the starting of my writing journey. Nowadays, I talk a lot about how I am struggling with my writing schedule.

Whenever I fail to publish one blog, I drown in complacency and start thinking about all the procrastination I did throughout the day. That’s inevitable.

You’re always procrastinating on something. The key here is to prioritise the necessary work. No matter how daunting it seems, once you set the inertia by taking the first step ( with or without thinking ), let the momentum take care of everything. That’s how I wrote today.

I came up with an idea and started throwing ( throwing in words, not trashing ) whatever came in my head. Then I came up with this current article that got published. The other one is still in drafts. I’ll revise that shit before I think it is gold enough.

This blog belongs to a series of posts I am publishing on a daily streak. Today is day 136 of 150. Here is the first blog that started the streak.

Thank you for reading! See you tomorrow!

~ Sanjeev