You, in My Bathwater
a free verse poem

There is a baby cockroach floating in my bathwater, passing by my toes. Pear-shaped dark with that little fleck of gold on its back. There is no mistaking that shape. Plunging into the downward pour you tumble and rise again to the surface, your carcass clinging to a volcanic mound of bubbles.
You have ruined everything.
You are that thing between me and the life I should have if we weren’t so shit-poor. You are that thing no one talks about and everyone denies. You that hides in the walls or creeps in on paper grocery bags you come in on boxes of donation food you come in with the dog food bags you come in somehow you come in
you, always you. I kill you and you never seem to go away.
you that fell from the ceiling when I was a child you that crawled and creeped and bore my shame upon your outer shell like sick crowning glory
you, white to black to brown you that eats your own
you, vile, in my bathwater
Christina Ward 🌼 2019






