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Summary

The text is a reflective story poem that explores the journey of building resilience through self-compassion and gentleness.

Abstract

The poem delves into the narrator's quest for stability and self-assurance amidst the uncertainties of life. Initially, the narrator experiences self-doubt and emotional turmoil while searching for a fulfilling vocation. Despite efforts to find stability in various roles, including in the healthcare industry, the narrator encounters intense emotional challenges. The poem describes a transformative process where the narrator learns to let go of rigid expectations and embrace a softer approach to life. Through motherhood and introspection, the narrator discovers the strength in gentleness, which leads to personal growth, self-acceptance, and a newfound resilience. The narrator compares this resilience to the adaptability of water, emphasizing the importance of being both strong and yielding. The poem concludes with the narrator acknowledging their intrinsic worth and the ability to touch lives with a sense of playfulness and lightness, affirming that "All is Well."

Opinions

  • The narrator believes that self-worth is not dependent on external validation or career success.
  • Emotional sensitivity is recognized as both a challenge and a gift, allowing for deep connections with others.
  • Motherhood is portrayed as a catalyst for the narrator's shift towards greater gentleness and self-care.
  • The narrator advocates for listening deeply and loving fiercely as paths to recognizing one's own value.
  • The concept of resilience is redefined to include softness and adaptability, rather than just endurance.
  • The narrator finds peace in embracing the fluidity of life, similar to how water adjusts to its surroundings.
  • There is an underlying message of hope and encouragement, suggesting that personal transformation is possible through self-compassion.

You Can Build Resilience with Gentleness

A story poem

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I long for stability and the confidence to declare this is how I best serve now and forevermore

Yet my foundation wobbles my beliefs are shaken am I worthless am I useless am I truly happy here in this vocation?

I leap to another seemingly stable platform I think I can do well here this industry is reputable my contribution is explainable and applaudable in the hospitals with these patients

But I shake I shake uncontrollably with tears and fears I feel too much sobbing as I connect with all their pains and suffering I can’t inhale

I have to let go exhale so I can take another breath even when there’s nowhere I can go I turn to this crumbling core within me and try to nurse it back to a healthy glow

Slowly as I grow new lives within me being a mother exaggerates my Harshness as I try to nourish my family and me with an enhanced Gentleness

I start to listen more deeply I start to love more fiercely I know that I’m worthy

The lighter I become the softer I melt I start to find containers to firm up my essence and touch lives with playfulness and lightness and a renewed sense that All is Well

I no longer blame myself for leaping and crumbling I don’t need to push to display my resilience

I was merely being water the gentle resilience of water strong enough to be molded soft enough to flow away when I’m no longer needed resilient enough to shift structures

This is how I build Resilience with Gentleness

Thank you for reading! This poem was inspired by what I shared in an interview with podcast host Kathrin Gabriel-Jones, Encouragement Coach for Ministering to Ministers Foundation. Here’s the podcast link:

Resilience
Gentleness
Self-awareness
Life Lessons
Poetry
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