You’re Going To Be a Father

Summary

The text reflects on the emotional complexities of an impending fatherhood, which signifies a definitive end to a romantic relationship, prompting reflections on the past, the nature of love, and the acceptance of moving on.

Abstract

The author contemplates the impact of the news that her partner is going to be a father, a revelation that brings a mix of emotions. It marks the conclusive end of their relationship, creating a sense of finality and acceptance. The narrative delves into the intricacies of their connection, characterized by moments of intimacy and distance, love and pain. It suggests that despite the deep bond they once shared, their paths are diverging, and they are meant to find love and build families with others. The text is a poignant exploration of the complexities of love, loss, and the passage of time, acknowledging that sometimes the most profound connections must give way to new beginnings.

Opinions

The author expresses a sense of resignation and calm amidst the hurt, recognizing that their shared life is coming to an end.
There is a reflection on past failures to truly understand each other, implying that perhaps they were not meant to be together in the long term.
The text conveys that space and the passage of time might lead to a deeper understanding and appreciation of each other, even if it means being with someone else.
The author seems to grapple with the contrast between the intense moments they shared and the reality of their parting ways.
There is an underlying acknowledgment that the partner's upcoming fatherhood is a significant and life-altering event that also affects the author deeply.
The author suggests that despite the pain, there is a need to let go and accept the natural progression of their separate lives.

You’re Going To Be a Father

You’re going to be a father. For two days it’s all I know. I guess that it should matter — it does. It seals the lock on the glass door that separates our lives. I guess it’s better when I know you can never step outside. Something has closed forever for us — here. I feel the hurt and I feel strangely calm for it is far from clear that life is our eternity

Perhaps we had too much long ago Perhaps too long we failed to know each other Perhaps to reach each other we need space and love, and life, and children with another

You are to be a father. I see you through cigarette smoke through unexpected kisses through unanswered texts through sudden invitations through I love you when you didn’t through refusing to meet my gaze through sidelong glances across myriad rooms through rum that drowns all memories through them telling me you’re looking through us dancing to chan chan through you saying I don’t know you through my knowing you’re no good through nights and days of pointless tears and countless years.

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