Yesterday Was Just One of Those Days
All I wanted to do was sleep, cry and eat
On paper, things are going pretty well. I’ve just moved house and I like my new place. Work is fine. Things with my boyfriend are great. I have a lot of exciting events to look forward to in the next few weeks. I’ve just started taking dance classes and I’m really enjoying the new challenge.
So there’s no reason why there should be anything wrong.
But when I woke up yesterday morning, I felt exhausted and miserable. I didn’t want to get out of bed. I just about managed to drag myself to my desk where I sat listlessly and feigned real work. I checked some emails and sent some messages and dealt with anything urgent. Then I took my laptop and got back into bed. I set my status to busy and slept.
I felt better waking up the second time around, but still pretty lethargic and a bit miserable. So I took myself to the kitchen and ate. I didn’t worry about calories or fat content or any rule I may or may not have followed in the past. I just ate foods that I found comforting and satiating. I felt a bit better after that, but still on the miserable side of things.
By some sheer feat of will, I survived the rest of the working day and found myself back in bed. I watched one of my favourite TV shows where dogs are rescued and reunited with their families and I cried a lot. Anything related to animals is pretty much guaranteed to make me cry.
I ate more snacks in the advert breaks, completely and totally guilt-free. I read my book before bedtime to give me a break from the screen and I got an early night. I didn’t do anything from my usual routine and I did not feel guilty about it for one second.
Today I feel fine. Normal. My energy is back and I got up for my morning walk with renewed energy. I’m writing again (on my lunch break) and I’m looking forward to my dance class later.
Sometimes we need to take a break from our usual routines. Sometimes we spend days on end running around at full speed with a thousand things going through our minds and that takes its toll on us mentally and physically.
I feel no guilt and no shame at needing to take a rest every now and then, and neither should you.
Sometimes our society is so focused on productivity and output and healthy habits that we think that breaking from our usual routine and listening to what our body really needs is a terrible failing.
But it isn’t.
We are not made to run at full speed without a break every now and then. How can we appreciate our routines and be grateful for the things in our life if we don’t take a step back every now and then to just be?
Rest should be valued just as much as exercise and healthy eating and being productive, and we should accept that our energy levels may ebb and flow and so what may seem totally normal on one day is an impossible feat on another.
Writing this article yesterday would have been painstaking work, but today the words have flowed from my fingertips without resistance.
I have rest to thank for that.






