Wreckage

Suicide’s Aftermath

What I’ve been thinking about quite often are the days before it happened.

What was going through your head?

Were you planning it out or Was it just suddenly decided,

This is it?

We’re you really getting better and sadness just took the win?

Or did you have us all fooled and this was always how it would end?

4 years ago today.

I'll wake up and relive it all again, laying you to rest and every first since then.

I think about those days before, what could have been going through your mind?

Was there anything I said or did that helped you decide?

Was there anything I didn’t do to keep you alive?

My biggest regret is not paying attention.

4 years still hasn’t given us the answers to any of our questions.

I should have been a better big sister.

I should have offered you protection.

I’m sorry Sky.

4 years tomorrow and I’ll still wake up wondering how did you know it was time?

And why?

I often wonder what you would be like if you had survived.

Would you ever have learned to be happy?

Would you have figured out happiness can only be found inside?

Would you have ever really enjoyed life?

Would you even have been the same Sky?