Will it Matter if I Write Today?

If I write today
How would my words express what moves inside
How would the light shine
How could the movement of my fingers match feelings in my heart
If I don’t know what lingers there
Is it so much that the thoughts wrestle on the floors of my mind
or so small to escape the emptiness
Perhaps fear holds them against blank walls
Maybe they’re lazy
If I write today
Will anyone care
Can my words touch your soul?
Would it matter to anyone at all
If I write today
Will the joy of my life unfold
Will my faith and hope illuminate any dark halls
Will there be a change
If I can’t write today
Would I imprison my thoughts
Would I leave behind a stitch in my heart
Would I allow fears to grip to clasp a little tighter
No matter what comes of it
I will release what scrapes inside
I will write today.