Summary

The author reflects on overcoming jealousy and personal growth while facing mental health challenges and the absence of a significant person in their life.

Abstract

The article is a personal narrative discussing the author's struggle with jealousy and its toxic effects on their life. Despite past mistakes and the challenges of mental health issues, including anxiety, depression, paranoia, and previous addiction, the author has chosen to forgo medication in favor of alternative treatments. They are actively working towards a happier life, conscious of the gradual process required for personal growth. The author acknowledges the importance of letting go of past experiences and the influence of jealousy from both within and from external sources. They assert their determination to shape their own destiny, free from the toxicity of jealousy, and remain hopeful about regaining their life's focal point.

Opinions

The author believes that jealousy from others may stem from their own progress and recovery.
They express a sense of resignation about the past, accepting that it cannot be controlled or changed.
The author personifies their mental health struggles as "imaginary friends" – Anxiety, Depression, Paranoia – who are envious of positive outcomes.
They are resolute in their decision to abstain from medication and pursue alternative treatments.
The author is aware of the need to continuously evolve and grow, viewing it as a gradual process.
They feel that toxic people and the negative emotions associated with jealousy have had their time and are destined for irrelevance.
The author is confident in their ability to maintain control over their life despite the challenges posed by jealousy and other negative forces.

Writing Challenge.

Will I Ever Be Able To Just Be?

Jealousy is Toxic.

As I am writing this article I know that unfortunately, I am not going to be able to convince everyone that I have had a genuine problem with “Jealousy”.

I have written about my life experiences and my mental health issues, also including my medication insights and the physical health effects of long-term medication.

I have chosen to abstain from medication.

I’m engaging in alternative treatments and constantly evolving and growing into the new beginnings of a happy and content life.

I’m working hard each and every day to create my road to a better place.

I’m conscious of the things I have to overcome and I believe in a gradual process.

Unfortunately, the most important thing in my life is not currently an active presence in life because of circumstance and situations.

I often wonder if the metaphorical gods are not with me and people are “jealous” of the fact that I am making a little progress.

I have made many mistakes in my life. I have also paid the ultimate price. I now believe that I can’t control my past life experiences.

It’s something that I know on based on my past life experiences

I now must place them in a metaphorical box or container making sure I have buried them deep in my neurological pathways to the deep chambers of history.

I have spoken before about my three imaginary friends; Anxiety, Depression & Paranoia. They’re forever “Jealous” of any kind of possibility of a genuine and positive outcome.

If you include Addiction then that’s four. Though I think that got “Jealous” because I have abstained from engaging with it anymore.

So now I have just three who are still obsessed with me and try to control me because they can’t control there own “Jealous” actions.

In conclusion; I have buried the past life experiences. I know what I want. I know who I am.

I’m missing my vocal point in life. Yet I know that “Jealous” individuals and powers from the outside are willing and wishing for my demise culminating in chaos and failure.

Alas, I am the artist and sculptor of my own destiny and the toxicity that “Jealousy” holds has no place in my future plans, hopes and dreams.

The myriad of issues that I have included in my past life experiences is not going to play any part in my future.

All of the toxic people and bile from “Jealousy” have had there moments in the sun.

Whilst I am under no illusions that I may have to face the fact that my focal point may, unfortunately, be a long way off.

I’m aware that I have to keep up with the gradual process of evolving and growing.

I’m convinced that I will regain my access to my focal point in my life.

Toxic people, vibes and even my three imaginary friends can stay on the metaphorical “Jealousy” one-way street.

In the detached negativity apartment which one day soon will turn into a cul-de-sac of irrelevance and diminishing thoughts in my past life experiences history.

It’s imperative that I persist with the journey of a new chapter in my life, dancing on the edge of the ocean making everlasting footsteps in the sand.

F@@k You Jealousy.

You Can’t Control Me.

This is my writing prompt response to Dr Mehmet Yildiz and his chosen topic “Jealousy”.

OneTeam. OneDream. Illumination.

Brian Anthony Cumberlidge.