Why we are appalled by our past relationships only after we are out of them

How do we go from infatuation to disgust

one moment fully invested

and then next completely appalled

scared as to how we let ourselves live with this person

as they hurt us

in every which way

how did we manage to give them that power

how silly

so silly of us

so now we rebuild

as we fight the urge to contact them

to run back

as we go with withdraw

so we make crazy decisions

and realize how much we needed to be set free

and how we are now

so we can self reflect

and grow

and the hope pours back in

so we are alive

we are very much embracing the golden flow of change

now pouring into us

but only when we accept its time

so how did we believe we were so happy

when we were drowning in emotions that made us want to throw up

and with someone who chose them

over you

over me

chose not to support

chose to make it a competition

chose to control

chose to manipulate

chose to alter your perspective

chose to break down your goals

and when you succeeded

they broke down

and it was your fault

but now its time to realize

that you are all you needed and how absolutely disgusting that experience was

for everyone involved

its time to gain perspective

so that the next time we choose to love

we can choose someone who will actually love

and love hard

and love right

so stand ready

and work on you

because that was a doozy

and it hurt

and its time to self reflect