Why, I wonder, while I am forty
A lament poem
Why, I wonder, while I am forty
why these thoughts ever had been?
days just swept while hair turns grey
Astro reads I born in July
Leo, my sign, loyal and kind but egoistic
don’t listen, echoed my heart
I got annoyed when the moon on eight
stars giggled, looking at me
don’t listen, said my ego
I have felt so much pain
Stressed at times with agony sort
searched for a lap to lay so calm
I have love with emotions blend
some told me I’m good to be
away, please, squawked others
oh my, close, I can’t believe
someone help to comfort me
who am I, and why am I here?
Where do I belong for where to go?
What for me and what for to?
stretch your hands to wipe my tears,
give me shoulder, and cuddle me up
My psycho mind said all have this
distress not and have the pill
I hate the pill and witness my thoughts
just kept still and went so deep
thoughtless state, pleasant to stay
stop the ego and have no worry
cease to think and turn not grey
let desire not follow your way
I quit my ego and had life easy
I felt happy and felt so joyous
I felt ecstasy with elation mixed
had lucid dreams and flew above the sky
my silence said it’s a kind of bliss
my psycho mind said it’s a sense of relief
I lost this state when my status compares
I lost this moment as ego triggers
searched all books and read them all
have lots of desire for all kinds of success
work so hard to get so rich
have some research got to go on mars
plan perfect for skyscraper
design so well for nice spaceships
think so deep for to be intellect
sweat the brow, you will grow
competence best to stay ahead
invest best to remain in stocks
write logic codes to rock the world
so read them to be rich!!
Perturbed, I, in the confused state,
chose to still or decide to think,
closed my eyes, and listened to my voice
what to shadow? And what not to?
What to clutch? And what not to?
I got to know, I got to know
someone help to soothe me up
give me a shoulder and snuggle me up
nothing to wonder, nothing to ponder
Thank you for reading. This poem is originally published on my blogspot. Jul 27, 2014