For the past year my life went from being justified to feeling like I jumped in the Delaware River on a cold winter night. Everything I knew about love was turned upside down. Suffering inside and dealing with another tragic relationship had me stopped dead in my tracks. What do I mean you’re probably asking?

The person I was going to marry last year ended up being the devil in a mask. I never regretted being in a relationship with my ex lover. There were upsets, downs, and challenges I continued to work on no matter what situation arise. Regardless of all the arguments, I tried correcting myself and wanted to understand where my ex was coming from. I watched videos, read, and even changed my attitude and prospective of love. All because my ex asked and I did, but I realized I was the one doing the learning. Little did I know that I was bait in the game of love and war.

Have you ever been part of a third party affair that you didn’t ask to be part of? The drama was intense and the chills that ran through my body wouldn’t stop. The rumors spread like a city block blowing up in black smoke. Deceit has been a triumph, and I am no longer holding on to the secrets due to broken promises. Polygamist relationships aren’t it, and the offer was never part of my life. I have always been superior, not a follower.

I’m far from a fool and see that people wanted me to follow down, a rough path that I constantly moved on from. The narcissist I was called, yet it wasn’t me. People will believe anything and go along with it laughing until it happens to them. I’ll be the joke and the black sheep, the one who won’t quit. The best thing I did was stop dealing with toxic relationships. I saw the suffering that came with bad decisions after all the cheating and lies I had to endure.

I’m living my life and working on my passion without fear or judgment. My heart is humble no matter who tries to break me down with false words. I know my truth and where I stand, which will always be straight looking ahead with my head up. Toxic relationships drained me to the point I saw myself as the abuser, I was at fault for everything. All the anger management classes and therapy I have done and continue to do. I am not the monster, the narcissist said I was though. My life isn’t a joke, and neither is my love. Toxic people love drama and ignorance, they love to be in the spotlight more than you. I never asked to be in the spotlight; you placed me here teaching me strong lessons where I had no choice but to see my faults and grow up.

I’m wiser, loving myself, and giving back regardless of the toxic people that come my way. To be better, you have to want better in your life. I do my homework and study hard for everything I have worked for. If you have stopped dealing with toxic relationships or people who have tried to destroy you. Please comment below. Tell your story and free yourself like I have.

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