Where To Begin?
Musings From An Intuitive Writing Session
What follows below is Gabby Gabs tapping into her intuition and writing in a free flow style.
When you are being commanded to write, can feel it, sense it, literally HEAR IT, yet have no idea where to begin.
When you had aspirations to create like J.K. Rowling, since a child, yet don’t know where to begin.
When you have wanted to be a counselor, a coach, a spiritual assistant, since a child, yet don't know where to begin.
When you have wanted to write your life story, for the past 10 years, knowing you have enough material for 3 novels, yet know you have so much farther to go in life at 31 years old, so you don’t know where to begin.
When you are prompted, when sleeping, when awake, when in pain, when happy, to write, yet you don’t know where to begin.
I watched a YouTube video last night all about how to write and/or make money writing online. One of the ways was by hiring a ghostwriter. That really hurt my soul.
To know that others are so desperate for notoriety or an extra source of income, that they will use someone else’s work as their own. That the person putting all their energy into the work is so freely ready to give it away for a nominal service fee. That hurts my heart but asks me to question something within myself. What is it about ghostwriting that is painful to me? Why is this so distressing to me? How is this a reflection of me? I am not judging ghostwriters or people who use them. I was simply ignorant to the fact that this was even a thing.
I was not aware this even existed, and when I found out, there was a shock factor for me, followed with some time needed to process this.
What I am hearing while listening to the videos is something along the lines of “Hey guys- This is how you rip people off, make a name for yourself, and in the process, you can travel and do whatever you want because you have figured out how to rig the system”.
Rigging the system, by taking something from someone who does not have the strength to stand in their own righteousness, and calling it your own work, is my perception of this.
Where is the satisfaction in that, for the person claiming that writing is their own when it is clearly not? I am so confused by this concept. When I sit with myself and focus on what this is bringing up for me, it’s this- Some people are good at many other things, but NOT good at writing. So, instead of learning how, it is easier for them to commission out the writing pieces that they need. Some writers have no problem letting others use their words, they know they have a gift, and they are sharing it with others who need their assistance.
When I look at it from that perspective, is there really harm in knowing that ghostwriting simply exists?
This is all a lesson in learning how to lose more judgments from your ego until there are none left.
But, I don’t want to rig the system, I want to take the system and dismantle it completely and rebuild it into something else entirely.
Yet I am no activist and feel no calling or desire to be one. So, I need to ask myself, do I want to just give in and find an “easy way out”, or do I keep moving forward, hoping to enact change everywhere I go, by giving love and peace, sending it rippling outward.
How do you effectively enact change around you, during a global pandemic, whilst residing in NYS, one of the tightest locked down areas in the nation?
Start a blog you say?
I have no interest in the judgments and criticisms people will throw my way based on my life and thoughts. It appears your ego is very afraid and assumes that people will attack you, isolate you, and reject you. You have no reason for these fears, as we will send the souls you are meant to reach. Have no fears, your tribe will be led to you, and you led to them. How can you enact this loving change you are thinking of if you don't make yourself available to others?
PERHAPS, This is why my spirit is calling me to write, to think of podcasting, to put myself out there online.
The system wants us to stop connecting in person, and start finding happiness within screens, they continue to create altered, or virtual realities for us to escape to so that we don’t notice their big overall schemes. That, I have never been more sure of.
The system is holding us back from fellowshipping with each other in person, and being able to go about our typical daily lives.
Some other form of reaching people must be brought to me, and I must leap on it as the vehicle is driving by. I cannot miss this next path. I have let too many pass me by already.
The thing is, you have to be calm, centered, and receptive to being able to identify the vehicle as it comes along.
It does not scream and shout… “Pick ME! Pick ME!” Instead, it chooses to calmly, slowly (or very quickly), shoot up to you, and then pass you by.
You may see it and miss it completely.
You must be aware and ready to receive from God, all that you have planned before your soul became Gabrielle.
*I have since done more research on ghostwriting, and don't have such harsh judgments on it. I have no judgments on it actually. It was a case of sincere ignorance, and I support ALL writers, no matter what form they choose. This article was written before I had a Medium account when I was having daily internal battles over even starting this blog*.
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