When The Last Thing I Wanted To Hear Was ‘Alegria’(Happiness)
If you visit Brazil during Carnaval, go happy or stay home.

Brazil is a wonderful country at any time of year — friendly people, wonderful fruits and foods to try, gorgeous scenery, and such a variety of landscapes. It’s a place to feel happy.
There is no space for unhappiness at this time. This would usually be fine for me. I enjoy a party, singing at the top of my voice, enjoying a few caipirinhas and dancing through the streets.
Except for one year, when the sound of people singing out ‘Alegria!’ was the most painful sound to my ears.
It was not the year I spent all night in Rio’s Sambrodromo singing the songs of samba school Beija-Flor and others for hours with 70,000 other spectators until my voice went hoarse. 70,000 people! That’s not counting the number of participants in each parade, which number up to 2,000.
To try and explain how it feels to have music all around you for that long, so infectious, so loud and with so many people — it’s like all parts of your body are singing and the bass is passing through you as it drones. The joy is exhausting.
However, another year I decided to spend Carnaval in Brazil’s northeast, in Salvador de Bahia, an energetic city steeped in a deep Afro-Brazilian heritage. This is the home of the famous samba-reggae band and cultural group Olodum, who perform every year in Salvador’s Carnaval and have performed with Michael Jackson, Paul Simon and Jimmy Cliff.
Before Carnaval began, I spent some time around Morro de São Paulo, on an island not far from Salvador, and rented a mountain bike. I didn’t check the brakes on that mountain bike and the first time I found myself going down a steep hill was when I discovered they did not work.
I went over the handlebars at the bottom and landed in a big heap. The pain in my chest was excruciating.
The village doctor checked me out but did not have access to an x-ray; that would be a painful boat ride away. Anyway, he determined I had either cracked or bruised a rib, and whichever it was, I should rest and let my body recover.
It was around this time that I also discovered I had contracted the nasty giardia intestinal infection, caused by a parasite that lives in water. I remembered the local river I had swum in a few days earlier.
Thus began a painful few days of vomiting and diarrhea, while suffering a bruised or cracked rib, in the middle of Salvador’s famous Carnaval.
My memories of this time are rather blurry, except for long nights spent in the bathroom of an apartment I had rented with some British guys I met on my travels.
They were very kind and looked after me when home, but most of the time they were out partying on the street. I could hear the word ‘Alegria!’ sung over and over again in the distance, while hovering over the toilet of the bathroom where I spent a few painful and rather lonesome days.
At times like these, the decision to travel solo did not seem the best.
Oh, and the damaged rib? Just last month, twenty years on, I had an x-ray in Spain for bronchial issues, and my doctor mentioned he could see I had cracked a rib at some point. He was the first doctor in 20 years to examine my x-ray and mention that. Mystery solved!
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