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Summary

The poem "When I Reach Inside Myself" by Jonathan Greene explores the emotional journey of self-reflection and the search for meaning amidst a sense of emptiness and universal disappointment.

Abstract

The poem delves into the introspective process of seeking emotional understanding and connection within oneself. The author describes the experience of reaching into the soul, only to encounter a disconcerting void and an absence of soothing feelings. The poem conveys a sense of disconnection and the paradoxical comfort found in the act of searching for inner fulfillment, despite the persistent feeling of vacancy. It also touches on the unsuccessful attempts to find solace in others, which ironically leaves them happier but the author with an unhealthy exit wound. The poet wonders if others share this frequent self-examination and the sensation of an emotional void, yet continues to hold onto the hope of one day discovering a sense of universal awareness through this personal quest.

Opinions

  • The poet expresses a sense of "universal disappointment" and a struggle with emotional fragmentation.
  • There is a comforting yet unsettling nature to self-exploration, described as reaching into one's soul.
  • The act of reaching into oneself can lead to an "unhealthy exit wound," suggesting the process can be damaging.
  • Attempts to fill the emotional void by reaching into others are futile and result in absorbing their pain instead.
  • The poet finds some solace in the effort of reaching inside, valuing the attempt to find fulfillment.
  • There is a curiosity about whether others experience a similar sense of vacancy and frequency of introspection.
  • The poem reflects an ongoing hope that persists despite the emptiness, aspiring to achieve "universal awareness" through self-discovery.

When I Reach Inside Myself

A Poem

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When I reach inside myself all I feel are jumbled words Fragments of lost emotion tipping on the edge of this universal disappointment

It’s comforting to reach deep inside my soul but also disconcerting when I can’t feel anything there to soothe my worry

Sometimes when I reach deep my hand just keeps going until I break through and come out the other side An unhealthy exit wound

I’ve tried reaching into others to get what I’ve lost but all that did was bring me their pain, leaving them happy

When I reach inside myself all I feel is a void My hand weightless A black hole of awareness The darkest darkness

I find solace in the effort, that is, to say I tried to grab for something that would fill me up, until there’s only air

I wonder if others reach inside themselves as often as I do I wonder if they feel the vacancy that I do

I’ve tried not to reach, but I think I am just hoping that one day when I do I’ll find what I’m looking for Universal awareness

© Jonathan Greene 2020

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