When I Reach Inside Myself
A Poem
When I reach inside myself all I feel are jumbled words Fragments of lost emotion tipping on the edge of this universal disappointment
It’s comforting to reach deep inside my soul but also disconcerting when I can’t feel anything there to soothe my worry
Sometimes when I reach deep my hand just keeps going until I break through and come out the other side An unhealthy exit wound
I’ve tried reaching into others to get what I’ve lost but all that did was bring me their pain, leaving them happy
When I reach inside myself all I feel is a void My hand weightless A black hole of awareness The darkest darkness
I find solace in the effort, that is, to say I tried to grab for something that would fill me up, until there’s only air
I wonder if others reach inside themselves as often as I do I wonder if they feel the vacancy that I do
I’ve tried not to reach, but I think I am just hoping that one day when I do I’ll find what I’m looking for Universal awareness
© Jonathan Greene 2020
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