When I Asked The Universe For Help, It Sent Me This.

Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional

Life has thrown enough boulders at me. From grief and helplessness to healing and abundance, I’ve made it through some testing times. I’m not paranoid and afraid of the future anymore, and its challenges that will inevitably come.

But this wasn’t always the case.

A couple of years ago, my coping mechanisms were questionable, to say the least. And as a highly sensitive and intuitive person who feels things deeply, the lack of proper coping mechanisms soon became detrimental to my well-being. It led me to cultivate unhealthy habits and associate with low-vibe groups and places.

Spiritually, I was lost.

I carried these mechanisms and grew up. I simply didn’t know any better.

That’s when a hero appeared — the internet.

The Age of The Internet.

Not that I’m from the Stone Age, but back then, the content side of internet wasn’t up to its potential in terms of accessibility and information.

My relationship with the Internet blossomed around 2019. This was before TikTok and short-form content took over.

When the Universe decided to help me out when I was losing myself, it did so through the internet.

It led me to a treasure trove of content on YouTube.

More and more people started to share their knowledge online.

I stopped feeling like I was the only one. I felt connected to our humanity as a whole.

And that’s when I found a healthy coping mechanism for myself —

Research.

I spent a lot of time online, in search of answers. Reading and listening.

I’ll be honest with you. At first, I researched with all my confirmation bias intact.

I didn’t want real answers. I didn’t want objectivity.

I just wanted quick gratification and validation. I wanted comfort.

The internet became like that one friend you’d go to after a bad breakup because you know she will put down your ex and pump up your ego like “He was never on your level anyway”.

This kind of “research” did nothing for me. If anything, it was just another unhealthy coping mechanism. Delusion was not the solution.

The Internet is a powerful tool, but I was mentally and spiritually unequipped to use it for my enlightenment.

Then it all changed when I got hit with the harshest reality of life — Death.

Grief matured me and catalyzed my spiritual growth like nothing else.

Pain and Wisdom

The deepest wisdom is always found in the bottom, at the sea bed. It’s meant to be mined out, but only through personal experience.

The discovery process only begins when you stop escaping and start asking the hard questions, to the universe and yourself.

These questions can be intimate. Embarrassing. And many other things.

But we must ask them nonetheless.

Why do bad things keep happening to you? Why is self-pity your default emotion in tough times? Why did we lose our loved ones? Even a simple “am I a loser?”.

These are questions only between you and you.

And the real answers can be found only when you become dead honest with yourself, which you can only do when you are completely away from the public eye.

If you ask your kind empathic friend if you are a loser, they will tell you “nobody is ever a loser buddy! We are all special and unique in our own way!”.

That maybe true, but that answer is not going to help you as you pick up your 10th glass of alcohol for the night, trying to numb your way out of your gut feeling.

When I lost my dad, my question was “why?”.

I compared. Everyone else had their dads alive and thriving, while I lost mine when I was only 27.

Plus my dad was a physically strong guy. So how did he leave so soon?

So I searched for the answers. Alongside, I processed through each of the emotions, like regret and guilt, that came with the grief parcel.

But I couldn’t just search for answers within myself. I had to search them outside too.

The internet became that external place.

Eventually, the answer slowly revealed itself to me. It was no longer just about “me” or my emotions. I unlocked something greater.

I found higher knowledge.

Doors opened to subjects that would take lifetimes to fully comprehend.

Spirituality. Karma. Psychology. Vedic Astrology. The Subconscious.

But if it wasn’t for the internet, and the legitimate content creators who decided to share their wisdom, or the brave few who decided to share their vulnerability online, I wouldn’t have known where to ask. Where to learn from.

It wasn’t just about my personal life experiences and struggles anymore. It was about the collective human experience.

Why do we all go through things? What are we meant to do here? Why are we here anyway? For how long?

Everything you are seeking is out there now — in this vast web of information. You just need to find it. Or trust that it will find you.

We are privileged to be living in the era of the internet, where information is galore. It’s just a click away.

The answers and the knowledge that will put your exhausted soul to peace, may also very well be just a click away.

Curiosity and Liberation

Knowledge not only liberated my soul from the chronic pain of our karmic burdens.

It also gave me a new purpose: to seek.

To keep learning. To keep thinking. Asking. Reading. Listening. And to finally implement.

Tough experiences are catalysts, meant to awaken you to the nature of our karmic existence.

They are meant to convert us into seekers, not sink us into the depths of despair.

They are meant to take you back to your soul. To keep you connected to your departed loved ones, and to discover the meaning of life and your role here.

Life is a Ph.D. course of its own. So let’s go get our doctorate on it. Let’s aim to graduate.