When does it get better?

I really thought when people said it got easier with time, it did…

Its been 10 months and it hurts the most when I’m happy, I wish I could share my happiness with you,

Five minutes ago I had a dream about you, it felt so surreal I didn’t want to wake up.

That hug and kiss I gave you in my dream felt so at home, you were my home.

And just like Chris Young said,

“Missing you comes in waves and tonight I’m drowning,”

I really am.

I’m drowning in my tears, the tears you promised you’d never let come out my eyes.

Nothing is the same without you…

My bed feels so lonely without you,

My heart feels so broken,

And I still feel so empty.

There’s days that I don’t even want you, but tonight I’m weak.

I’m still not ready to say goodbye.

So tell me now, when does it really get better?

Thanks for reading, its 3 a.m. and I woke up crying, I pulled out my laptop to write, writing is my therapy. The worst kind of pain is when you don’t even have anyone to talk to, when you’ve lost your best friend, your everything.