Summary

The author discusses their journey with writing on Medium, reflecting on personal challenges, aspirations, and the overwhelming feeling that comes with pursuing a writing career and setting life goals.

Abstract

The author, who once aspired to be a renowned violinist, has turned to writing as a new career path after realizing they were not ready for their childhood dream. They joined Medium in 2016 but initially struggled with skepticism, lack of time, fear of rejection, and uncertainty about their abilities. Despite these challenges, the author has committed to writing more frequently, aiming to earn an income from their work on the platform. The abundance of writing ideas and the necessity to set goals have left the author feeling overwhelmed, juggling writing ambitions with personal life goals. The author seeks to express their feelings through writing, prove their worth to past bullies and abusers, and find their place in the world. They have adopted a routine of walking in nature and waking up early to focus on writing, while remaining open-minded to new opportunities and experiences.

Opinions

The author has a deep-seated desire to be recognized, initially as a violinist and now as a writer, and to prove their value to those who have doubted or wronged them.
There is a sense of self-doubt and fear of rejection, but also a strong drive to overcome these feelings and succeed as a writer.
The author believes in the importance of setting personal and career goals, despite feeling overwhelmed by them.
Writing is seen as a therapeutic outlet for the author, allowing them to express feelings and work through personal challenges.
The author values open-mindedness and embraces the unexpected turns in their career and life paths.
Early morning writing sessions are considered beneficial for concentration and productivity by the author.

What Does It Mean Being Overwhelmed And How Does It Feel

As soon as I discovered Medium, I wanted to write on this platform as much as I can. I love it here. Stories written on this platform inspired me even more to write.

I always wanted to be one of the greatest violinists in the world. But I wasn’t ready for it. So, I have to change my career path now. As a child, I also wrote unfinished stories — if I may believe my mother. And since then I haven’t done, anything with writing.

Skeptical

Since 2016 I added an account on Medium to start writing. In the beginning, I was skeptical about this platform, will it work or not. In the first place, I didn’t write that much because lack of time or maybe didn’t know what to write about, and also I was afraid of what people think about my writing.

Afraid to be rejected and feel that kind of pain. I am not sure if this will work out for me, but I try to. Since summer I write more here and since last week I try to write stories every day, at least three. To see what happens. I also added a premium membership to look at how far I will come to earn money.

I was skeptical for myself too. Can I do this? Can I be the writer I want? Can I be the person I want to be? To answer all these questions I needed to go deep down in my heart, what I wanted and what my wishes and goals are for my life. I didn’t know. I still don’t know. I just do something.

This year, I decided to write more, not only at Medium but also elsewhere.

How writing ideas come into my mind

Well, this is an interesting subject to talk about. I have so many interests and so many favorites things to do…

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Too overwhelmed

I seriously want an income from Medium. I’m not sure if it will work out for me. But now I got so many ideas to write about, want I want to do to become a writer in any form. All thing is overwhelming me at the moment. This writing career thing forces me to makes goals, not only for writing but also for my life.

Writing allows me to express my feelings

I write a lot lately: in my diary or online. I have so many things to say or I feel lots of things. All I want is to…

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I never made goals in my life as I thought I wasn’t worth making any goals.

In this sense, it is all overwhelming that I don’t know where to begin with my goals, what I want to achieve first and how I want to achieve that.

Besides my writing goals, I have also life goals, personal goals, things I wanted to do. And many more. I wrote this down in my notebooks.

Whatever I do, I haven’t achieved any of them. I still fight my place in the world.

It all overwhelms a lot. Am I doing too much? Do I want too much? I think, I want to prove all my bulliers and abusers that I can do anything, that I am not a failure and that I am worth something or anything.

Like having goals to play the violin. I still want to play the big music pieces for the violin.

What helps me

You have plenty of things you can do to not be overwhelmed or think about how to achieve your goals. I always thought they were not what people expected me to be. That’s why I never made my own goals as I thought my goals didn’t matter at all. I thought people knew better what is best for me. But now I know much better to use my voice.

Lately, I am walking a lot in nature to think this all through and that I do matter in the world.

I am also open-minded to whatever comes through my life or career path. By being open-minded you will get more surprises and maybe things will work out for you.

Why being open-minded is good for you

First of all: what means being open-minded? That’s a question I should ask myself and define it.

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How does overwhelm feel

Being overwhelmed feels as if you’re a big ball in your stomach that gets bigger and bigger. Not coming out at all. These ideas stick there continuously.

When you get more ideas every day and moment of the day than you don’t know where to start. I even don’t know how to get my ideas into a story or how to keep up my planning.

What helps me lately is waking up at 6 am. I can concentrate on writing hen there are no people around me. I love to hear people waking up.