What an absolutely adorable girl! Those pics of you and your self-related narratives make me wish you were my daughter. You would have thrived in our home along with my two daughters, now 24 and 22. You were and are precocious, along with that word’s cognate, precious.

When the body goes awry, including the brain, then the mind is experienced self-consciously as going awry. That’s what happened to me when I awoke one morning experiencing tingling and numbing from head to toe. I was diagnosed with full-body neuropathy. My mind has not been the same since.

You have a far more frightening auto-immune disease: MS. Of course you experience yourself as “not being right in the head.” However, you have two pieces of tangible evidence militating against that mental diagnosis: the ratio (Latin pronunciation) of your writing and the clarity of your eyes in the photos of you, then and now.

I’m assuming you’ve read Augustine Aurelius’ self-revelations, Confessions.