avatarHashan & Snowy

Summary

The text is a reflective piece on personal growth, self-discovery, and the journey towards self-compassion and love, away from the internalized negativity stemming from past traumas.

Abstract

The author shares a deeply introspective narrative about the struggle to overcome self-destructive thoughts and behaviors. The text likens the process of healing to a detour from a self-destructive path towards one of self-discovery, where confronting personal lies and navigating insecurities is akin to traversing rough terrain. It acknowledges the role of compassion and love as antidotes to the poison of anger and hatred that the author has previously directed inward. The piece concludes with the realization that the author, like everyone else, is on a continuous journey of learning and personal development, deserving of self-love and the ability to extend that love to others.

Opinions

  • The author expresses a wish for the ability to communicate joy and welcome, indicating a desire for stronger connections and a more positive outlook.
  • There is an acknowledgment of the impact of past traumas on current mental states, particularly the lack of self-compassion.
  • Long drives serve as a form of self-therapy, highlighting the importance of self-reflection and the need to protect relationships from negative emotions.
  • The author admits to having harbored anger and hatred towards themselves, which has manifested in destructive behaviors and beliefs.
  • The process of letting go of dark beliefs is likened to leaving a well-traveled road for a more challenging but truthful path.
  • The author recognizes their own past arrogance and the damage caused by pushing ignorance onto others, reflecting a shift towards greater self-awareness.
  • Compassion and love are identified as the necessary antidotes to the author's internal struggles, suggesting a belief in their power to heal and transform.
  • The author sees themselves as a child in the grand scheme of life, with much to learn, and emphasizes the importance of self-love as a prerequisite for loving others.

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Hi, the caller you tried to call can’t get to you right now.

I wish you could brother, so your joyous welcome could fill in the paranoid groups my mind makes. A mere reflection of the lack of self-compassion that resides from old pangs of trauma.

The long-drives are self-therapy sessions where I convince my shadow not to burn the relationships I have formed. Pushing anger and hatred away from others — a reflection where I have poised that poison at myself.

For I’ve been drinking this deadly liquor for years and my drunk driving has veered me off the roads of contentment and straight down the highway to hell.

Letting go of dark beliefs has me detouring this streamlined asphalt of regret and onto brutal paths of self-discovery and truth. For lies I conjured became the trees that I navigate around. Some I repent and avoid and others I can’t leaving dents in my being. Crevices in a rocky terrain leave aches of the bumps endured by a growing mind.

And with dirt and no path in front of me clearly drawn, harrowing insecurity breaks the once arrogant self I was. Where I presumed so much when I knew nothing. What ignorance I have blatantly pushed on others as I chiseled away my own understanding.

The antidote is the characteristic I’ve turned away from. As compassion and love have inferiority sizing me down. Terrible thoughts I am hopelessly a victim too.

Why do I need God to remind me as I get older and wiser, that I’m still a child with so much to learn? To remember what equality I am to all of you and as I can love myself and give compassion, I can reciprocate the same gift to you all. Which we all deserve as wounded, pulchritudinous humans.

Mental Health
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Self-awareness
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