Untangle Me Please

A Poem of Friendship Ending

Is this real — this feeling Familiar but one I thought I’d leave To my adolescence

Long ago Her absence Is deafening Her silence

A message of indifference Her smile directed Toward her horizon I pretend to look away

While she fades Out of existence And I’m afraid That she won’t stay

By my side we laid Grand plans For she met my gaze As equals

Shared our painful Histories and presents So I thought An inner circle

Was unspoken As if sisters But this feels like betrayal Like some unknown expectation

Impossible to attain While myself, I am feeble I could ask to speak to her And lay it on the table

But at this moment As she flies away I am not sure that I’m able To let her go if I must

Know the truest mistake I made when she tells me I won’t know if there’s Something missing

Or if it’s a story that blares Mystery and paranoia In place of asking If our adventure ends now

Or if what she faces Cannot be shared With me or anyone Demons that are not mine

That are no one else’s burden But belonging to this Friendship might show me This loyalty is burning

And if I let my mind go

Elsewhere

She might follow

© Samantha Lazar 2019

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