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once filled my soul with joy has now lost its flare — it has fizzled and has become a mere flicker in the darkness. I know it’s still burning because the embers are fluttering all around especially when I am in the heart of nature, raising my energy, and breathing in that good ass prana — <b><i>#shoutouttoralphsmart</i></b>.</p><p id="db4a">I don’t know for sure, but any day now, that flame could flicker one final time, or perhaps it will rekindle, and a phoenix soul will rise. I try to remain optimistic, but the energy that I am feeling is at an all-time low. And the crazy part is, I don’t know if this is my own energy or if I am absorbing it from others.</p><p id="bce1">Currently, the frequency in the world is heavy and dark, but light always comes from the darkness, and I owe it to myself, and for the sake of this journey to keep my light flickering by any means necessary.</p><h2 id="983f">Confession is good for the soul</h2><p id="04e4">I have a confession to make — I no longer enjoy being around people, I love humans and I love my family and I am not fearful of them, but I don’t like some of their energies. But ironically, I have a deep desire to want to help anybody who might be in need.</p><figure id="2573"><img src="https://cdn-images-1.readmedium.com/v2/resize:fit:800/1*Y5V7set0wSZAgFQGwk7PBQ.png"><figcaption>Photo by <a href="https://unsplash.com/@emilianovittoriosi?utm_source=unsplash&utm_medium=referral&utm_content=creditCopyText">Emiliano Vittoriosi</a> on <a href="https://unsplash.com/photos/3VmiRM4vW2Y?utm_source=unsplash&utm_medium=referral&utm_content=creditCopyText">Unsplash</a></figcaption></figure><p id="aebb">I believe I am an empath — though I have lived most of my life not knowing what an empath was. In the past, I didn’t understand why most people were drawn to me or why they felt comfortable sharing the issues they faced in their lives. That was a heavy burden to bear because I absorbed those issues, and there were a few occasions, where I couldn’t release that heaviness from my space.</p><p id="03df">In hindsight, had I known who I was or what I was, I would’ve done a better job protecting my own energy, instead of allowing it to be sucked by those <b>#energyvamps. </b>Ironically, most of those people gave two shits about my issues — for my issues were my own burden t

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o bear. But now that I have a better understanding of who I am, I can recognize when my energy is being disrupted — I have gained trust in myself as well as in the journey.</p><h2 id="e428">Journeying into the light</h2><p id="71d3">As I asked before, why is life so burdensome and complicated? We walk on paths of darkness before finally discovering the light. A constant path of endless discoveries, and for some, those paths lead to nowhere. No lessons learned, no growth, no awareness, no sense of self — nothing. It is in those spaces where many humans lose hope in themselves — for if there is no hope, how the hell are we supposed to trust the journey?</p><p id="a8d8">It is not easy to find the light when all someone sees is darkness. It is not easy to keep the faith when all feels lost. It is not easy to love when all you have experienced is hate. It is not easy to trust a journey that may deliver nothing.</p><p id="0110">For me, all I can do is let go, continue to learn and grow, and trust that life will continue to unfold itself. I will continue to have hope and put my unwavering trust in the journey even during those dark times when I don’t understand it.</p><p id="6596">I hope you do as well, for knowing thyself can lead to trusting thyself as well as trusting in this unknown journey.</p><p id="0fef">This feels exhilarating, I needed to write this…</p><div id="b24a" class="link-block"> <a href="https://fearlesslymj807.medium.com/membership"> <div> <div> <h2>Join Medium with my referral link - Melanie J.</h2> <div><h3>As a Medium member, a portion of your membership fee goes to writers you read, and you get full access to every story…</h3></div> <div><p>fearlesslymj807.medium.com</p></div> </div> <div> <div style="background-image: url(https://miro.readmedium.com/v2/resize:fit:320/0*uKpMPdyz7nRFV6rN)"></div> </div> </div> </a> </div><p id="d6bc"><b><i>Thank you all for reading. Welcome back <a href="undefined">Diana C.</a>!!! Thank you for creating the space so that we all can revisit stages in our lives, tell our stories, grow, and heal. KTHT has been an emotional rollercoaster — one that I don’t mind riding.</i></b></p></article></body>

Trust the Journey Even When You Don’t Understand It

Knowing Thyself Can Lead to Trusting Thyself

Before I begin this article, I would like to say it is my pleasure to welcome back Diana C. to Medium. Your essence was truly missed. When you mentioned your return to KTHT, it felt like it was destined to be, and I believe the timing is ideal for your return.

I am hoping that you discovered all that you sought, and I hope that through growth you have developed new perspectives and have found new meaning to this life. I hope that you have gained clarity while on this journey and that you have developed an unwavering trust when you are faced with challenges. In your own words my dear Diana:

“We need to trust the journey even when we don’t understand it.” — Diana C.

The journey ain’t easy, but I gotta trust it, right?

What is this life about, why can’t things be smooth and effortless instead of burdensome and complicated? And these life lessons that we are learning, are they even serving a greater purpose? This journey has not been easy and trusting it can be challenging.

Between the fear of failure and the fear of not living up to my true potential, my only peace of mind comes from knowing who I really am. Because of that one discovery, I am still standing strong — so when life’s challenges come knocking, I politely smile and slam my door in their faces — with some style and grace. It is in those moments that I feel empowered to let go and trust myself as well as trust in the journey.

I haven’t been writing much lately because I believe I lost some of my passion — my motivation has dissipated. That unbridled flame that once filled my soul with joy has now lost its flare — it has fizzled and has become a mere flicker in the darkness. I know it’s still burning because the embers are fluttering all around especially when I am in the heart of nature, raising my energy, and breathing in that good ass prana — #shoutouttoralphsmart.

I don’t know for sure, but any day now, that flame could flicker one final time, or perhaps it will rekindle, and a phoenix soul will rise. I try to remain optimistic, but the energy that I am feeling is at an all-time low. And the crazy part is, I don’t know if this is my own energy or if I am absorbing it from others.

Currently, the frequency in the world is heavy and dark, but light always comes from the darkness, and I owe it to myself, and for the sake of this journey to keep my light flickering by any means necessary.

Confession is good for the soul

I have a confession to make — I no longer enjoy being around people, I love humans and I love my family and I am not fearful of them, but I don’t like some of their energies. But ironically, I have a deep desire to want to help anybody who might be in need.

Photo by Emiliano Vittoriosi on Unsplash

I believe I am an empath — though I have lived most of my life not knowing what an empath was. In the past, I didn’t understand why most people were drawn to me or why they felt comfortable sharing the issues they faced in their lives. That was a heavy burden to bear because I absorbed those issues, and there were a few occasions, where I couldn’t release that heaviness from my space.

In hindsight, had I known who I was or what I was, I would’ve done a better job protecting my own energy, instead of allowing it to be sucked by those #energyvamps. Ironically, most of those people gave two shits about my issues — for my issues were my own burden to bear. But now that I have a better understanding of who I am, I can recognize when my energy is being disrupted — I have gained trust in myself as well as in the journey.

Journeying into the light

As I asked before, why is life so burdensome and complicated? We walk on paths of darkness before finally discovering the light. A constant path of endless discoveries, and for some, those paths lead to nowhere. No lessons learned, no growth, no awareness, no sense of self — nothing. It is in those spaces where many humans lose hope in themselves — for if there is no hope, how the hell are we supposed to trust the journey?

It is not easy to find the light when all someone sees is darkness. It is not easy to keep the faith when all feels lost. It is not easy to love when all you have experienced is hate. It is not easy to trust a journey that may deliver nothing.

For me, all I can do is let go, continue to learn and grow, and trust that life will continue to unfold itself. I will continue to have hope and put my unwavering trust in the journey even during those dark times when I don’t understand it.

I hope you do as well, for knowing thyself can lead to trusting thyself as well as trusting in this unknown journey.

This feels exhilarating, I needed to write this…

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Thank you all for reading. Welcome back Diana C.!!! Thank you for creating the space so that we all can revisit stages in our lives, tell our stories, grow, and heal. KTHT has been an emotional rollercoaster — one that I don’t mind riding.