True to Myself

When Life Happens, Stay Strong

He shouldn’t have made me choose between my world and this one.

Now I stand at a crossroads.

I already know my choice but leaving is tearing me apart.

The light from a clear breaking dawn holds promise of beautiful spring day and adventures waiting, but my heart is so heavy I cannot make myself move.

Yesterday we swam in the warm Pacific waters, playfully like dolphins; happy to be in each other’s company.

How was I to know it was not enough for him?

That our first day would be our last?

How was I to know that you could give your heart so completely to someone in less than a day?

But my future had already been determined before I arrived in this place. To change a single detail now would mean betraying my people, myself even.

So I watched him go with unshed tears, my resolve shaken but not gone.

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