Trauma is my friend. I hate that!
Trauma can be described in so many different ways and its ridiculous. I'm going to explain this the easiest most blunt way I can. Trauma sucks the life out of people. Some people lived with it there entire lives. Suffering your whole life sucks. I only made my suffering last 20 years until I finally had a fucking enough! It was time for ME to figure out why ME was feeling so fragile, so secretive, so close to wanting to kill myself just to get away from all the confusion, my thoughts were making me go insane! Let me help you before it could be to late for recovery.
Here is a list of things you will need in order to help yourself:
- notebook
- pencil
- yourself
- honesty- no one has to see your TTWCS
TTWCS = (Trauma Trigger Words Cheat Sheet)
Put some cool stickers on that notebook, draw TTWCS, whatever it is that makes your heart smile!
I will post pictures of what todays paper looks like. Ill transfer it onto my TTWCS notepad tonight when I get home!
Did you know that you actually have to scroll all the way down to the bottom of this page, do a kickflip, back stand cartwheel down dog, roll down JUST TO SEE if you read this article? Ya me either until now. fuck that news. JUST DO IT though!
The three questions I ask myself every morning that gets me into the right mindset to live a better day!
Draw a circle, answer the first question putting your answer in the circle. My picture will be at the bottom of this page to reference off of. Picture it like a Bullseye target
- How do I feel today? =Bullseye
- What am I most Grateful for?=Red
- What keeps me wanting to live more?=Blue
The trigger to finding the trigger is simply hearing or reading words that trigger us traumatic individuals causing discomfort from every angle possible. Find a safe place to figure out your warning signs. Sometimes I need to look In the mirror to answer it and thats fine. Thats Honesty. Thats Healing!
You need to take every possible angle to attack the reasons why some words or phrases set us off so crazy sometimes its SO worth your time! Love yourself and try this activity!
-Its very important to distinguish Trigger words with Triggered individuals.
Just so you don't suffer like I have id like to briefly explain -I had gotten kicked out of Shopko for life! Just because they had some Karen working the returns and god damnit she would not let me return it. I had everything I needed to return it besides the wall mount bracket that was originally GONE from the start which was WHY I WAS RETURNING THE FUCKIN TV STAND! Karen's around the world like her that day told me that I should probably “Go home, find the shaft that she assumed I lost and stick it up my ass”
TRIGGER Individual- is that person who has no respect, no rules of what comes out there mouth. DONT be around THESE PEOPLE! KARENS!
Now your foot is new in Recovery — that is great ! DO THESE NOW , tell me how it ends!
- question your questions and it will all come together! Draw 1.2.3 alongside your bullseye!! My questions already helped me accept I have trauma, that it wont go away, it will always be OKAY!
- Why do I feel happy today — because Im alive, came to an acceptance point I never thought that I would be in. The comfort of knowing others can learn from my past mistakes. OHHH I COULD KEEP going but you get it now. IM HAPPY
- What am I most grateful for today — My Sobriety is always up on my gratitude list, My efforts got me sober. 3 years is a long time clean from all mind altering substances!
- What makes me want to continue life — My son! Under 2 , Understanding the fact mental illness is deep rooted in his mother at this age kills me. Some like her, haven't unraveled the traumatic experiences that form who she is today. I will forever continue to praise mental heath, making others understand the diagnosed brain with trauma is my passion!
Conclusion
Feedback is a crucial part of the recovery process! Please comment. Please take my advice and make these 3 questions a daily habit. Trauma is a weird friend to have. They show up whenever, wherever the uninvited fucks who just need to be met right in there tracks!
Meet that friend, get to know them through the simple three questions. Eventually like I, a week from now you'll have over 25 words that triggered you that you didn't even know about! Discomfort is okay remember. Emotions are great ways of indicating a word hurts. Start searching it will change your life, healing will eventually happen!
