Transgender … I Wonder.

Summary

The website content is a personal narrative exploring the author's reflections on gender identity and experiences that challenge traditional gender roles.

Abstract

The author shares a deeply personal journey after watching a transgender documentary, questioning their own gender identity. They recount childhood memories of preferring traditionally masculine activities, such as playing with cars and excelling in aggressive sports, over typically feminine pursuits like dresses and dolls. The author, born in 1959, faced gender-based restrictions and societal expectations but found empowerment in defying them. They had a successful career as a pro-female wrestler and business owner, including a stint in Playboy. At 62, the author concludes with self-acceptance, acknowledging their masculine traits and experiences, yet remains open about the nature of their gender identity.

Opinions

The author questions whether they are transgender after identifying with male behaviors and preferences throughout their life.
There is a expressed disinterest in traditional female roles, such as dreaming of a wedding, wanting children, or dressing a girl in pink.
The author takes pride in their aggressive sportsmanship and ability to compete with boys, challenging the notion that they "throw like a girl."
A sense of satisfaction is conveyed in defying gender norms, such as the joy of wearing pants after a school rule change and the success in male-dominated fields.
The author reflects on their career with a sense of accomplishment, particularly as a pro-female wrestler and in their entrepreneurial ventures, including a 900 line and appearing in Playboy.
There is an acceptance of their current identity, with contentment in their life experiences and physical attributes, despite being disabled at 62.
The author values the opinions of others, inviting comments and discussions about their narrative.

Sports. I was very aggressive.

I went to the baseball field and wanted to play. The boys laughed at me and told me I “Throw like a girl!”

I was pissed off! My stubborn red hair was now in charge!

I spent weeks throwing the base against the garage. I got damn good.

I also practiced in front of a mirror, trying to look powerful. I will show them!

They handed me a bat, and I hit the first pitch really far.

Then I was put on 3rd base. I caught a ball and thew it home. The runner was struck out.

Photo owned by Jan Sebastian, the author

I became a pro-female wrestler. I was very competitive at everything. My wrestling company made tons of money.

It was called Sweetheart Productions. We really kicked some ass.

I had many businesses. A 900 line to talk sex or talk to a wrestler for $4.99 a minute.

I was even in playboy. I was shy about my body, but it was one butt shot, and as a single mom the money was great!

I was in a movie called Gatorbait 2, here is the trailer for shits and giggles.

Even a wrestling movie, American Angels Baptism of Blood. It’s free on google.

Transgender … I Wonder.

Maybe. I never dreamed of a wedding or a white dress.

I loved my kids, but after 2, I got my tubes tied.

I hated dresses.

Dolls, I had no interest I did have a Barbie and Ken, but I took their clothes off and pretended they were kissing.

For sure a dude move.

Sports. I was very aggressive.

Finally, I marched back to the baseball field and said, “ I wanna play.”

They handed me a bat, and I hit the first pitch really far.

I had many businesses. A 900 line to talk sex or talk to a wrestler for $4.99 a minute.

So about being transgender? I know for sure, at least I was a dude in a past life. I understand how they think from a first-person perspective.

So the jury is out.

Thanks for reading.