Today I Grieve for our Pre-COVID Lives
I worry life will never be close to the same again.
I think this has been the most challenging week of the pandemic so far. The world has just become such a hateful place. As a counselor, I recognize this is a stressful time, and I try to have compassion for people. Finding the good in others has been more of a challenge. Sometimes I am just so angry COVID-19 has brought the worst out in so many people.
In my hometown of Clovis, CA, the big topic has been whether or not in-person classes will happen. My girls are in college, so it doesn’t affect me directly, but I have friends and family who are parents or teachers in Clovis Unified.
There are mixed opinions about what should happen this school year. Governor Gavin Newsom took the weight of this debate off everyone for now by requiring schools begin the school year online.
Before Governor Newsom’s decision, I saw a post from a friend (a high school classmate), an award-winning high school teacher. This friend survived breast cancer in the last few years, so she is understandably very concerned about the level of exposure.
I should also say this friend loves teaching, and her students love her. I know this because they frequently seek her out after graduating to post comments on her Facebook page, telling her the impact she had on them.
I always read her posts because she is a very positive, uplifting person. I became angry when I saw one of the comments on her post was another high school classmate calling her a “whiny baby” for posting she felt expendable. The same individual also left equally offensive insults on some of the comments made by others.
I always had a reasonable opinion of this person in high school, but I haven’t stayed in touch. So I took a look at her Facebook profile in an effort to understand why she was so hateful. If I had to give a brief synopsis of her profile, it would be a “Christian woman who spends her life doing good deeds.”
I’m sure you all have friends who fit into this category. I’m not saying it’s a bad thing. I have known people like this my whole life, many were indeed good people. I wish I could say I was surprised to see the discrepancy between her profile and her comments, but I wasn’t.
I’m not the kind of person who quotes scripture on Facebook, but I remember the general lessons I have learned from reading the Bible. I know we should treat others well and show who we are by our deeds, not our words. Once again, I was disappointed to see someone proclaiming to be a good person because they are Christian, yet acting in a very ungodly way.
To make matters worse, the commenter’s sister defended her by saying she had adopted a special needs child. Doing good things doesn’t give you a pass to be hateful to others. I will not be sending a friend request to this particular long-lost classmate.
If this incident were an anomaly, I wouldn’t think much about it, but it happens entirely too often. I don’t advertise my religious beliefs. I know I’m supposed to go out into the world telling others the “good news,” but I also feel you can do this with actions, not words.
I should strive to be a good person, treat others how I would like to be treated, and to have love and compassion for all. I try not to judge, to be forgiving. I guess this post fails at the judging part, so I will keep trying.
My point is we should demonstrate who we are by our actions and “They will know we are Christians by our love.” Also, I am not perfect, so I don’t post or write a lot about my religious beliefs. I just try to be a good person.
My late husband, Patrick, has been on my mind a lot lately, causing me to wonder how he would react to all of this. I know he would be focused on the medical/scientific aspect of this. He wouldn’t question the need for a mask. He would agree with the closures and social distancing.
He would have listened to the medical professionals whom he worked closely with, and done additional research. He would have been very alarmed at the potential for loss of life and disruption to medical care. I’m very thankful our daughters are also sensible and have followed social distancing guidelines. I know he would be proud.
In the interest of full disclosure, I will say the pandemic has not had a substantial financial impact on my household. I have had to be cautious since I rely on savings which are subject to fluctuations in the stock market, but my husband Bruce is still working, overall, we have been in a good position.
Sierra and I both started paid positions in the last few weeks, so we are in an even better place. I understand I have a privilege others might not, so the economic impact is not as significant for me.
With my privilege in mind, I feel the potential for loss of life should be a top priority. Some people have tried to downplay this by saying they were not healthy before the pandemic. Or the numbers aren’t high. Sadly, I think their opinions might change if the virus hits close to home.
With all of the tension right now, I’ve gone back and forth about what I should write, what I should post, etc. I feel I have educated myself on many current issues,, making me want to share what I have learned.
I’ve seen others become angry with anything contradictory to their beliefs. I’m still surprised this pandemic and social justice have become political issues. Sadly, I think it will get worse before it gets better. Be safe, everyone!
Originally published at https://www.danellt9.com on July 20, 2020.
