Thriving From Surviving

The long process of choosing to shift our life’s path and energy

I thought I was already thriving.

I wasn’t, but after working hard to become more conscious and aware, my feet were firmly planted on the ground. I was facing in the right direction, on the path towards thriving.

One would think so much of the work was already done at this point, but there was much more to come. The work never ends.

I stood terrified. Frozen with fear unable to turn back, unable to step forward.

Sick from the inertia.

At this point too I am still struggling, nursing a broken heart, tending to my tired spirit. Exhaustion runs deep in my bones. The essence of death tingles up my spine and occasionally peaks in my mind as despair.

Yet slowly and surely each foot is now moving, one foot in front of the other. My heart leads the way, walking into the unknown. Heading towards the new energy that embraces me ahead.

I know where I’m headed. Well, I can’t put it into words, but the human spirit in me knows what I need and I am trusting that guiding force.

The flame of love burns strong in me.

Survival is what we see all around us. Most don’t have someone to look up to who’s thriving. Most don’t even understand the concept of thriving.

It is an alien concept to so many of us.

Sometimes all we can ask for is to survive, sometimes being grateful for the opportunity to survive is all we may receive, and sometimes it’s enough.

I’m still trying to figure it all out, but what better a pursuit, to thrive- if we are lucky enough to have that choice to make?

Thriving isn’t about living the picture-perfect life, but rather living life in integrity, and being dedicated to taking the steps to get there.

This appears differently for every single human being.

Happiness never flows too far away from us when we’re living in our truth. Being authentic isn’t easy though.

So far for me, it has been painful, beautiful, destructive, messy, and intense. The changes in my life have swept me off my feet too many times to count.

I don’t even try and keep count now, Instead, I remember the ocean of change within and around me.

The waves that wash away what we’re brave enough to let go of, the crashing sound signaling a potent point of breaking open.

Then we’re left in the vast calm sea. A space where we may catch our breath and glimpse out at the expanse before us.

If we are courageous enough to choose to return to ourselves, our inner world, and work on healing what most scares and stops us, we will triumph. We will soar. We will thrive.

The panic rising in me dissolves a little more each time I dig deeper into practicing self-love and trust.

Alchemically I feel the changes, mentally, emotionally, physically, spiritually. Feeling more closely connected to everyone and everything.

I barely recognize the girl in the mirror now.

I make the conscious choice to let that intrigue me rather than scare me too. Though some days It still scares me.

If only everyone got the chance to witness the miraculous nature of life and the universe staring back at them in the mirror.

Thriving for me has felt impossible at times. It’s seemed so out of reach that I consistently turned my back on the possibility that one day I may thrive in life.

In time I realized though, I have the power to return that trust to myself, that belief. I am the one in charge of my experience of life. The responsibility is on my shoulders, which also means the power is in my hands.

Just like anything in life we are forever in a state of change as humans. We are never going to be sure of everything and some days we’re sure of absolutely nothing, and all of it is okay.

Isn’t it beautiful? Isn’t it magical to revel in the mysterious self that we face in the mirror?

Living in integrity for me is what I am calling thriving from now on. I’m not striving for the impossible. I’m striving to continue to follow my truth. To be deeply grateful, hopeful, and trusting in the path that stretches out in front of me- even when I have no clue where it’s leading me.

Some may call it blind faith, I’m calling it a risk I’m grateful to take.

Thanks for reading ❤