Three Things I Tell Myself To Stop My Pity Parties
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It’s been over a month since I started writing content for Medium. Perhaps a bit less than that since I started writing for this publication. Regardless I’ve noticed that the quality of my content is evolving. Originally, my intention for Medium was to utilize the outlet for my fiction stories. Of course that takes more time for me to brainstorm an idea, write and then edit the story. Now, I’m developing what I call an e-journal. The content is directed towards myself in the medium of poems and flash articles. However small the views, they are still getting one or two more readers than I expect. Is it for the better? For the worse? I’ll subjugate that verdict to the reader.
The Majority Of My Work In This E-Journal Is A Response To My Anxiety.
I try to keep record of things that happen to me and how I respond. Sometimes, I find quotes that are gems that I want to refer back to if I’m having a crappy day. On some days, I’ll even poke a little fun at myself. Much like my debut piece here on Medium linked below.
I will always cherish this piece because it reflects entirely what type of writing I want to create for these self reflections. Spontaneous, but absolutely necessary when I’m having a bad day.
When I’m having a bad day, I don’t want to smile because I look better when I do.I don’t want to try to cheer up,I don’t want to go for a walk.I don’t want to write.I don’t want to paint.I don’t want to clean. I don’t want to work on anything.
The only thing that appeals to my mind is wallowing in my sorrow.
And, yes. I am aware that this isn’t the best tactic to handle situations. The negative energy is effective. The negative energy is contagious. I know I can cast this ugly cloud on anyone I come across, and it’s not fair.
But I Want To Do It Anyway. And That’s Where I Get Myself In Trouble.
I want to spend the whole day absorbed in this ward of negativity because EVERYONE has to know! I’m angry! I’m sad! I’m inconvenienced! But I know I shouldn’t. And I almost let it happen today. I thought I was going to have one of the worst days of my life today. My gut wrenched at the thought. I let my head spin around in the possibilities of how the day would pan out and what it could mean for the future. I had to remind myself, I’m not going to be prepared for everything life throws at me.And in the event I’m not, I need to be strong enough take the blows, Roll with the punches, And keep it moving.
There Are Three Things I Always Tell Myself To Avoid Sitting In A State Of Pity:
1. Life is variable. 2. Your anxiety is lying to you. 3. There is only so much you can control.
I let that stick with me to remind me of my humanity. And though I may not be able to control everything that happens around me, I can control how I let it affect me.