This is What Helped Me Reunite With My Twin Flame After Our First Separation

There is a difference between how I handled the first separation, which I believe led to a reunion, and how I am handling it now, which has been teaching me many more lessons than I ever fathomed.

My twin flame walked away from me for the first time after exactly one year of speaking to each other daily and consistently meeting in person. He had told me he was looking for an engagement ring for me, and, of course, that I was everything he ever wanted. He referred to his departure as his ‘crazy moment,’ and upon returning, he promised not to do it again. Our first separation lasted for two months. Needless to say, he did it again after 6 months.

The most powerful thing I did during our first separation, which I have not been able to replicate in almost 11 months of this second separation, is that I blocked him after he told me he did not see a future with me. I even wrote a very loving email thanking him, wishing him well, and saying goodbye. I made it clear that I was moving on to embrace bigger gifts that I was certain God had prepared for me because he left me with no other choice. During such separation, I had no doubt that I did not want someone who did not want me back and who had given up so easily on us. I was feeling abundant gratitude for the whole experience, and I truly felt my frequency was high despite this blow. In other words, I was able to return my twin back to the universe with no resistance.

I spent several weeks thinking about why I was able to do so then, but not now, and I believe I have the answer. You see, every emotion we feel contains messages for our healing. We move forward in our healing the more we sustain our high frequency, and we can also deflect backward when we start polluting our souls with attachments. This pollution may cause us to regress or stay stuck until we clarify our intention again to the universe, affirming that, indeed, we want healing.

I had been very serious and committed to my healing for about 8 months before meeting my twin and throughout the first year of knowing him. I did not allow myself to focus most of my energy on him or in our beautiful and profound relationship, which certainly was the best I ever had. I found more pleasure in my healing journey than in wishful thinking about our future. Unfortunately, I was not aware that this high-frequency state could diminish if I was not attentive, and I began to forget myself after he came back, which has led us to the present separation.

The reason why I included an image elusive to photography in this piece is that it used to be one of my favorite hobbies, to which I would dedicate a significant amount of time and ended up abandoning after my twin came back. I remember being super happy thinking about learning more about photography and going out alone to capture photos of landscapes. I have not been able to pick it up again.

I was also very active on a social media account I created in 2019 about spirituality, and I was experiencing significant and rapid growth. Sadly, I also neglected it after my twin came back and did not post anything for the months that followed our reunion. I picked it up again 2 months after our second separation began, and it has been very rewarding.

I made a lot of mistakes after my twin returned the first time around, and I’m just now coming to face such mistakes and their consequences. Some of these mistakes include:

1. Making his well-being my priority: By the time he walked away the first time, he reached out a couple of days after my goodbye email saying he had suicidal ideation and depression. Even though I knew better thanks to the therapy I had been attending and all the codependency books I had read up until that point, I chose to make his stability not only my priority, but my main and only life project.
2. Forgetting myself slowly but surely: As you can imagine, making someone or a relationship our main work in life will have consequences. I now think back and I’m pretty sure I was giving him more than 80% of my daily energy. I think I even stopped doing my meditations and yoga. I began skipping some days here and there, next thing I know, I was spending hours on the phone with him daily and not having any other activities for myself.
3. Trusting him fully with zero boundaries: Yup, I took him back with so much compassion just because I kept focusing on how depressed and suicidal he was feeling. I now realize I was enabling him as I’m typing this. I thought I could save him by spending hours listening to him and seeing him whenever he was able. I wanted to show I was there for him, no matter what that meant for my well-being. He did get better, but by then, I had allowed enough pollution inside my soul that significantly halted my healing.

I would list more mistakes, but I’ve had enough for now. =) I had been meaning to write about these mistakes for a while, even just to myself, because it really helps put things into perspective. The lessons this time around have been more severe and profound because I have to pay back somehow all that time I used disproportionately in order to hopefully learn for good that we can never take for granted all the effort we have put forth in our healing. No situation or person is meant to ever come to be more important than our own ascension! The universe is always moving us toward healing, whether we accept its fruits or not.

I hope this has somehow helped you ponder how you might be hindering or have hindered your own healing. Sending love and light.