Think Big. Go For It. Celebrate the Wins!
You’re only here once

For as long as I can remember, I have been fascinated by BMWs, in the way that young children are enamoured with racing cars and motorbikes (well, I was). But the nearest I came to owning one was purchasing a fourteen-year-old ‘Bimmer’ around seven years ago. It was on the bottom end of the 3 Series, and it packed in after a few months. That’s what you get for £650!
A couple of months ago, I began seriously considering getting a Bimmer on finance or leasing a car. After an initial feasibility study, I threw both ideas out of the window… but not forever. Something drew me back to the showroom.
I had a lump sum coming in, so I figured out how much I could put down as a deposit for a £10k car. That’s peanuts to people who use car loans to buy vehicles, but it is a big deal to me. I don’t buy things on finance, ESPECIALLY cars. They lose value the moment you drive them off the forecourt. Why get a loan for a liability? I pay for them in cash, or I don’t buy them.
Well, I spotted this Series 1 116d Sport, and the dealer let me take it away for an afternoon. I fell in love with it, especially ‘Sport mode’. That experience sold me the car. I think the sales guy had my car marked at a glance.
I bought the car on finance!
The one in the picture is NOT mine. My friend was right when she said I have a poor relationship with money (and celebrating my success and owning my abilities) because I could not bring myself to take a photograph of my vehicle. The thought of getting someone to take a shot of me standing next to it was even less of my cup of tea. It’s a beautiful car and hasn’t got a mark on it, but going out my way to get the photo would have looked (and felt) too… posey.
I have always been awestruck by the iconic design of BMWs. Those kidney-shaped grills resonate with me in some way. They make the front of the car look incredibly majestic — like a moustache. That’s why I bought it, not because it’s a luxury brand, and I have no regrets. It is a joy to drive — a pleasure on every trip — and I am mind-blown by its efficiency. Not quite as economical as my motorbike but blows my old car out of the water. I am probably saving enough to cover the finance payments!
The car was my treat for my latest book contract. Not only am I working with Little, Brown Book Group again, but they have given me permission to list it as a role in my profile, AND they are happy for me to announce the name of the book once it is published. As a ghostwriter, I have got used to being in the background, so it will make a refreshing change to say, ‘Hey, I wrote this!’
You may have noticed that the photo is from the DVLA’s personalised registration page. So, does this mean that I’m considering a personalised number plate?
Yes, it does, but I am struggling with that as much as I did with the idea of getting a car on finance. It goes against my previously embedded belief system. Why pay for something I don’t need? What is driving me (excuse the pun)? Ego?
I believe the registration celebrates how I have succeeded — as a ghostwriter. The people I write for tend to be at the top of their game, and I have consistently gained trust despite never turning up to a meeting in a new car or a posh suit.
A few years ago, when I was invited to an event by one of my clients (and now a friend), I was overwhelmed by imposter syndrome. The thought of mingling with some very wealthy people in my cheap suit filled me with terror. ‘Others will judge me,’ I imagined.
The man who hired me and invited me to the event reminded me that he didn’t hire me as a suited and booted fashion guru. I was everything he had expected from a writer, he told me.
So, why not celebrate the fact that I am winning as a writer? As long as I am still the same person, I will continue to be someone my clients want to hire.
There are millions of superb writers out there who haven’t figured out how to make a living out of it. I dreamt of being a full-time self-employed writer for years, so I am proud of every minute I get to enjoy the role.
Don’t be shy about blowing your own trumpet. Accept it graciously when others do.
Originally posted on LinkedIn.
