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Summary

A corporate professional reflects on how years of navigating the pragmatic business world have eroded their initial ambition and passion, despite having gained experience.

Abstract

The author, a seasoned corporate individual with eight years of experience, muses on the dissonance between what companies seek—ambitious and passionate leaders—and the reality of their own diminished drive. Initially an idealist, the author adopted a more realistic mindset to cope with the harsh corporate environment, which involved suppressing lofty goals and managing expectations to avoid disappointment. This adaptation led to the loss of ambition and passion, replaced by cynicism, as they prioritized survival over idealism. The narrative concludes with the author's introspection on their journey, now marked by a sense of aimlessness and a stark contrast between their once vibrant aspirations and their current state of existence.

Opinions

  • The author suggests that the corporate world can be detrimental to one's ambition and passion, necessitating a compromise of ideals for the sake of survival.
  • The pursuit of "realism" and the avoidance of disappointment are presented as factors contributing to the loss of the author's original aspirations.
  • The author implies that the corporate emphasis on experience comes at the cost of personal ambition and passion, leading to a form of professional and personal stagnation.
  • There is a sense of irony in the author's situation, as they have become what companies seek in terms of experience but have lost the very qualities—ambition and passion—that are also highly valued.
  • The author's approach to life, influenced by Zen philosophy, is depicted as a double-edged sword; while it helped them cope with rejection and disappointment, it also resulted in lowered expectations and a loss of drive.

Recruiters are Always Seeking Ambitious and Passionate Leaders with Proven Experience

But what if corporate experience kills ambition and passion?

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A headhunter wrote to me on LinkedIn.

“Seeking ambitious and passionate leaders with proven experience.”

I know, that’s the kind of person companies always say they want to hire.

Experience? I have plenty of it. 8 years in the corporate world.

But ambition? Passion?

I laugh wryly to myself.

You see, I was not meant for the business world.

To survive in the brutal corporate world, and “get things done,” I had to learn how to be realistic. So I stopped aiming for the moon.

I kept getting rejected. I decided I had to avoid being disappointed, so I stopped proposing outlandish ideas.

They said to be mindful. So I read a couple of Zen books. “Good enough is enough.” — I thought, so, I lowered my expectations. That was the Zen thing to do, wasn’t it? If you don’t have high expectations you’ll never be let down. So, I got very good at having low expectations.

And so 8 years passed and I finally gained some experience.

Headhunters were calling me.

“Seeking ambitious and passionate leaders with proven experience.”

Now, I had experience.

But my ambition and was gone. Where there was passion once there was now only rock-solid cynicism.

I had murdered my ambition and snuffed out my passion, all in the name of experience.

So now, I stumble aimlessly through life, waiting patiently for this painless struggle to end.

I drag my feet home from work each night, under the moonlight and starlight, while the trees shed their leaves and grow them out again. Days into months, months into years, years into decades.

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