They won’t always understand
And that’s okay…
*A conversation between my higher self and I*
I’ve done it again
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I shared a portion of myself and they don’t understand.
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Please talk to me. I know I told you to leave me alone, but I’m ready to change my perspective.
I’m here to listen.
First, I’m sorry for shutting you out. You are magnetic, it’s intimidating and scares me. Much like that time, we made eye contact with a stranger at the gas station and immediately we both smiled. It was as if we knew each other. Did I know him?
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I broke eye contact, it was too intense, and you showed me his spirit. I knew that he knew something. But how?
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You attract and support strangers. Much like that boy who became obsessed with us. He wouldn’t let me breathe, I enjoyed my solitude and he took much of that away. I had to set boundaries. The same thing happened with the guy before him. They cling to your energy and it becomes draining. That’s why I keep you away.
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Why is it that I always understand them, but it isn’t returned?
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And my poptart twin, I just want to take his hand and fly to every corner of the universe. We crave to be one not two. When he told me he felt this, all I could muster was an “Mmmhmm”. Am I supposed to be happy that he’s finally waking up to this connection? I remember bringing up twin flames to him a while ago, but he never acknowledged it and I didn’t pry. Now he’s bringing this to me… my god the responsibility.
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I liked it when he was oblivious. Now things are going to get intense again.
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Still, I’m reluctant to share about a soul so precious and a mission full of purpose. The lack of understanding and consideration for the world greater than this reality does not exist to them. Nor does the concept of twin flames. If they ever experienced something like this, I swear they wouldn’t be able to withstand it.
Everyone walks their own path.
Yeah. If someone walked in my shoes I know they would go crazy.
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Outsiders would try to rationalize my experience. They say only a few experience a spiritual awakening, is that true?
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The chosen ones. I don’t like to think of myself as that. I’m just me.
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And the kundalini awakening: my body was vibrating all over, energy was erupting from my heart space and other areas of my body. It was like a full-body orgasm, pure bliss and love. Others feel intense pain when it happens, why?
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Is it because they put themselves through something their body wasn’t ready for or some other reason…?
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Hmm. I know a medium member who experienced this, and they described it similarly to my experience. At least that’s comforting though, I know I’m not alone on this path.
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And love, I do not desire it. Some people think I’m crazy, but my purpose in life is deeper than the superficial version of love they see/desire.
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I have soulmates and when I gaze into their eyes I see the universe. How could I desire a superficial relationship when I am consciously aware of what my soul desires?
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When I imagine love, it isn’t going on dinner dates, rose petals and hot baths, late-night clubbing, five shots later, and a hangover in the morning. It’s feeding and clothing people in need, gazing at the universe through the eyes of my soulmates, nurturing our souls and the souls of others, making love to the world with our bodies, and using sex, not as a means of self-pleasure, but as an agent for spiritual evolution, triggering others to awaken at the massive explosion we release into the world. I cannot desire what I already have, but I can share it with the world.
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I know my journey is incredibly unique. Sharing my experiences will certainly raise disbelief and judgment in others, but I’m ready to embrace the change. It certainly wouldn’t be the first time someone thought of me as a weirdo. But…
Let them judge.
Yes. I’m not here to change their minds. I’m here to share my experiences. They don’t have to understand and that’s okay.
I have been reluctant to discuss my spiritual journey, twin flame, and kundalini awakening out of the suspicion of being misunderstood by my audience.
Recently, I’ve noticed that there are individuals in the twin flame community heavily clinging to the concept, conflating soulmates and twin flames interchangeably when they are in fact separate in nature. This quick assumption behavior is detrimental to the individuals who are actually experiencing a twin flame journey.
The circle jerking in those threads validating toxic and traumatic relationships and attaching the label “twin flame” is one of the main reasons why many deem twin flames to be “unreal” or a “delusion”.
I never considered taking a leadership role to assist others who are on this path. Though I cannot offer much spiritual guidance, I can only share my experience in hopes that it will bring comfort to those on a similar journey.
Light, Love, and Peace!
Willow💖♾️🖤