There’s No Shame In Changing Your Mind

Why I stopped telling people my plans

I’m someone who’s obsessed with making plans.

I can be a bit of a perfectionist. In the past year, however, a lot of things haven’t gone according to plan, so I quit making plans and instead of living, I was just existing.

I was at my lowest low and it was a very difficult time for me. Eventually, I got a bit better then I started to have just a bit of faith, I decided to take steps and write plans again.

Then I did what I often do. I ran these plans with my closest friends and my family. My plans got approval (not that I needed it), and I felt encouraged to try at least.

Then life did its thing again, it happened.

I was reluctant, hesitant, uncomfortable and part of me strongly felt: I don’t want to go ahead with this plan anymore, at least for now.

It was hard to get to this realization.

You’re just being lazy, you don’t want to try harder.

I wondered if this was truly the case.

It wasn’t.

I just had a change of heart.

And because of this I was filled with overwhelming guilt. I felt like I was disappointing everyone that I had informed of my plans.

Then I came to the realization that this is my life and I don’t particularly answer to anyone. If I go on a journey and realize I no longer want to follow through, I have every right to change my mind.

If I force myself in order to fulfill the expectations others have of me and I end up being sad, frustrated, alone… it would hurt more

So I have given myself the liberty and the permission to change my mind. To make a plan and not execute the plan. It’s not the worst thing in the world. What’s terrible is going on a path that I clearly do not want to take and being miserable.

So yes, I decided to stop telling people my plans, so that I won’t feel pressured to accomplish the things I tell them.