There Has To Be A Better Way Of Living!
Everyday it’s the same process, wake up at 6am walk the dog, come back take a shower and get ready for work, drive my youngest Daughter to school and to work I go to deal with business owners IT issues for 8 hours a day 5 days a week.
I know I should be grateful that I have a good job, great family and so far a good life but deep inside I’m so unhappy! Unhappy because I look around and wonder is this all what life has to offer? Yeah, I know it’s cliche and you have probably heard and read about this a million times.
But don’t you at times sit and think about it when it’s quiet or in the middle of the night. When there are no distractions and the mind runs wild with crazy thoughts. To me it’s been weighing on me more and more. Maybe it’s because I hit my 50’s and the realization is starting to sink that I may not have much time in this world and that every minute that goes by brings me closer to my end.
They tell me “Jose, it’s all in your mind! Life is great!” Really as I see the people around me walk around with their masks on hiding their unhappiness much like I do with my mask. You try to get on with your life going around and around in a flat circle, when I’m reborn again will I end up doing the same thing I’m doing now?
When we are kids we can’t wait to be Adults and live the life that Adults as to a kid at least being an Adult meant freedom! Looking back though being an adult is more of an enslavement than freedom. In reality being a child is much more closer to freedom t than an adult could ever realize.
It looks like I’m not the only person who see this and feels this as we see many strike out on society, built up anger and rage at the world that has killed our childhood dreams.
Anger and rage it seems is all we have before it all burns to the ground! When will it happen? I hope never but you can sense the tension hiding in the dark just waiting for the it’s moment to show itself to the world.
Is this what life is about? To live life going around in circles so that in the end you die and that’s it! There is no meaning, there is no God, there is nothing but darkness in a sea of angry and unhappy people.
Maybe I’m just delving to deep into some imaginary issue that is playing games in my mind. I go through these events from time to time as I usually was able to ignore it but now a days it seems harder to do today.
