The truth is most days I dream of running away,

Summary

The author expresses a deep yearning to escape their current life and start anew in a warmer, more vibrant environment where they can rediscover themselves without the burdens of their existing identity and responsibilities.

Abstract

The text is an introspective reflection on the author's desire to run away from their current situation to a place where the warmth of the sun can revitalize them. They envision themselves engaging in new hobbies, such as yoga on the beach and reading in a coffee shop, in a town where they are unknown and can reinvent themselves. The author contrasts this dream with their current reality, where the hustle and bustle of life leaves them feeling disconnected from their true self. Despite the freedom typically associated with being 21, the author feels unfulfilled and uncertain about their identity and future. They acknowledge the necessity of personal transformation and the challenge of turning life's lemons into lemonade, suggesting a need to rebuild their life from the ground up.

Opinions

The author is dissatisfied with their current life and harbors a recurring dream of escaping to a new, warmer place.
They believe that starting afresh in an unfamiliar town would allow them to engage in self-discovery and create a persona they would be content with.
The author feels that their present environment is too chaotic, preventing them from truly indulging in activities like visiting bookstores and practicing yoga.
They reveal a sense of disillusionment with the age of 21, which they expected to be a time of self-expression and freedom, but has not met these expectations.
The author suggests that becoming the person they aspire to be requires a fundamental change in their way of life, implying that true self-improvement comes from within.
There is an acknowledgment that life's challenges are inevitable, and the author recognizes the need to confront these issues head-on rather than running away.
The text conveys a longing for personal growth and the creation of something meaningful out of the current circumstances.

The truth is most days I dream of running away,

The truth is most days I dream of running away

I’m not sure where to yet but I think it would have to be someplace warm, not warm like the place I’ve found myself at recently, but somewhere new, where the warmth from the sun can seep through me and into my pores to liven me up.

Maybe I could pick up a new hobby or two in a town where nobody knows my name, start fresh, make a new version of myself that I would actually like to be.

I can see it, bounding around to get to yoga on the beach, scorching sand beneath my feet, running around until I find a store with a million and one books to read. With those books I can go to a coffee shop and really immerse myself, truly study what I think.

Study what I think…

I can’t do that here, no. There is too much life going on around me to even eat. After awhile the book stores here have lost their appeal and the yoga around town no longer stretches me around to feel.

You see being 21 used to symbolize to me that I would have time to breathe, a period to let go and just be me, and I do that all the time…. but it’s not everything I thought it would be.

The problem with going out and enjoying a night with friends is that no matter how much you drink you still have to get up in a few hours and double down on who you want to be.

Who do I want to be?

I’m not sure.

Nobody want to tell you how it really is, that if you want to be someone who is something you have to unlearn how you live.

Start from the ground up and dig deep and no longer run away.

Make something out of nothing, lemons to lemonade.