The Stories That Keep Us Hidden
This is why my star wouldn’t shine

There are some areas of our lives where everything is a breeze. We want it and we get it. We get it and we get it easily and effortlessly. Whatever we ask for is given to us. No struggles, no hassles, and heart desires are served to us on a silver platter. But then there are those other areas that feels like a Catch 22. We want it but we don’t get it. We pull and push and kick and knock and fight and scream and cry, and still, we don’t get it. No matter what we do, heart desires don’t manifest. It gets frustrating, and that’s how I’ve felt for a long time.
For a long time, I felt like my star was hidden. Like people did not see me. I felt invisible. I could work hard and still not see results. I could do everything I was supposed to do and then more and still not see success. It was a constant struggle to get ahead. I found myself in jobs that overlooked me for the promotion I worked so hard for. The girl who did the bare minimum got the promotion because… I don’t know! The men I attracted wouldn’t see me. They would choose the other woman who didn’t look half as good because… I don’t know! I could be falling apart on the inside laying by their side and they still wouldn’t see me.
I was a sad girl.
No matter what I did, I felt unseen. I felt unheard too. I could talk to a person and they’d just keep doing what they were doing as if they couldn’t hear me. I started to think they couldn’t even see me standing there. Every time they couldn’t hear me, the pain took my voice away so I didn’t want to speak at all. My voice got softer and softer.
I retreated into my shell, and I shut the entire world out! I wanted nothing to do with a world that rejected me!
I often asked myself what I had done wrong. Why was I so different and why was my life so painfully hard? I felt like I was not good enough. My star was hidden. Its light wasn’t shining and so I couldn’t.
I told myself the enemy had stolen my light, and I believed it. It became my story. I was the girl who was in constant spiritual warfare and opposition. It felt like I was always under some kind of spiritual attack. Nothing I wrote, posted, tweeted, shared, or did was seen. Some force was surely making me invisible. Nobody would support me and no one would help. No one cared about me. That’s what I believed and it became so.
Every time I said my light was stolen, it became a self-fulfilling prophecy and reality worked to prove my story. I felt like I was always under attack and my mind was the battleground. Nobody would help me when I asked for help and I’m sure people didn't even know why they didn't want to help where they clearly could. The stories became my reality and which made became my identity.
I believed my own lies and my lies became my truth.
No one could see me.
My identity was tied to the beliefs and the stories I was telling myself.
Do you feel blocked in an area of your life? Do you keep trying and yet you can’t seem to get that area of your life moving forward? Then it’s time to be honest with yourself about the stories you tell yourself.
What’s your story?
What’s the story you tell yourself when you're all by yourself? What are the things you think of yourself? What are your subconscious reasonings and beliefs?
Those were the things that were messing with me.
If you feel blocked in your finances, do you tell yourself that money is hard to get and you must work twice as hard to make just a little bit? Do you tell yourself you just can’t hold on to your hard-earned money because there’s always an unexpected expense? When you struggle to find love, do you tell yourself that true love is just not possible for you? Do you think to yourself that you’ll never ever find love because the world is full of traumatized people who refuse to heal?
You have to be brutally honest with yourself. I had to be brutally honest with myself.
Our identity is tied to the beliefs and the stories we tell ourselves. When you identify yourself as something, you become it. When I told myself that nobody truly saw me and that my star was hidden, I was identifying with that story, so it became my identity.
My star wouldn’t shine no matter what I did.
But it was the things I was saying to myself and thinking when things weren’t going my way that was creating my reality. I had to be honest with myself to get out of my hell loop. I also had to change my view of myself. It required me to change the way I saw myself. And that was the most difficult thing to do.
Anytime we try to change an aspect of ourselves that is deeply rooted in our identity, it can feel unfamiliar and uncomfortable. When you feel like it’s not real or natural, you will be tempted to revert to the old stories and then back to the old identity. It can make you self-sabotage when you’re making progress.
I had to truly understand this.
I refused to go back to the old story that made me feel as small as a speck in the universe. Like I didn’t matter at all. I didn’t want to feel that way anymore. I needed something to change so I decided I would start writing a new story that would replace the old one. I started telling myself that the right people will see me and immediately my heart. They will see me and see God and the good in me. They will see my light and my hard work and they would appreciate me for it. And then they would reward me for the work I do to serve.
And it was so.
I told myself I’m seen, and I started believing it. That’s how I got out of the self-defeating loop I was in. I decided to change those negative stories I was saying to myself and create a new identity.
It is your identity — the things you identify with — that make you who you are. I let go of the old stories and also the old identity that I was not good enough. Then I changed the way I saw myself.
I am enough. It doesn't matter who doesn't see me, I see myself. I am a good person and my heart is good. I am the strongest woman I know for all that I had been through and I acknowledge that woman within. I could identify with that woman, so… I became her.
When I started seeing myself, the universe saw me.
The moment I started feeling seen is the moment the world started seeing me.
I was able to overcome the blockages in my life because I was brutally honest with myself. It was all me, creating my reality with the false stories I loved telling myself. Honesty revealed to me my negative thoughts and limiting beliefs that were keeping me stuck in a negative pattern.
There was work to do.
I dug out all the false stories — each and every one of them — and I worked to change them. I sat to write new stories to replace the old limiting ones.
As I grew in my spirituality and arrived at a place of neutrality, I could just sit back and observe myself and my thoughts without judgment. I captured the crazy, silly lies my ego was identifying with and refuted them with the truth of who I really was. I rearranged and reorganized my psyche, did the inner work, and the external world followed suit. I was able to change my external world, all because I changed my inner dialogue. Changing the stories changed my identity.
Now I don’t feel like an irrelevant speck in the universe. I am the universe. I cause every closed door to open, and I walk through like a champion. There are no blockages on my path, and I charge through the struggles I still face. Nothing can stop me now.
People see me and they feel my spirit. I speak and they listen to all that I have to say. I attract the coolest men who see all of who I am, even the parts I try to keep hidden. It appears to be the most interesting part of me. And that is all because I stopped telling false stories and started writing true stories.
I see myself, and I approve of the woman in the mirror. I love her and she is worthy because I wrote it. I am seen and heard wherever I go because I have this energy about me. My aura travels miles and miles and my star? It turns out I am the star! All I can do is shine.
I choose to shine as bright as the morning star no matter what the weather forecast says. There are no more battles in my mind. It feels as quiet as the sound of midnight. There’s nothing holding me down and so I can ride with the wind and dance with the stars.
I feel like light, and my light will continue to shine onto the path of billions of souls. And it was all because I sat down to write my story. The moment I started feeling seen is the moment the world started seeing me.
Now, what’s your story?





