healing

The Spell

How to find freedom within the unfolding of the spell

My goal here is to zoom out from my life to a philosophy about the meaning of life. It started from an intuition because I have no certainties about the accuracy of the circumstances, my certainty concerns my feelings and intuition. I don’t pretend to be a scientist but rather to expose a philosophy based on my feelings and my intuition.

It’s difficult to make sense of our life when we live it on a daily basis with many thoughts about our material life. To zoom out, several tools are at our disposal to get out of our ordinary consciousness : daily meditation, dreams, lucid dreams, psychedelics… Now in 2020, we have all the information we need, it is just a question of choice of focus.

Our template was built long before our birth. Our present life is an experiment for our soul to increase our will, wisdom and love through this limited time field, the constraints put in place on this planet in order to find our own freedom. Our freedom is in how we react to the game rules. It is quite a challenge, but to help us, we have nostalgia for the wholeness, our drive to know and the suffering we are going through.

Here I expose my quest to solve the mysteries I felt as a child.

My mother

She was born in 1932 in a large farmer family. She died in 1994 of ovarian cancer, which is the essence of her wounded femininity.

As a child, I wanted to protect my mother, I didn’t know what from. It was said that when she worked for the first time, her father had to drive to pick her up, so that she didn’t have to walk five kilometres at night. Did she have a bad encounter? Seems her boss was known for touching women. She never talked about it.

Had she ever been touched before? So my grandmother would have pushed her to go further to school to keep her away from the family. I don’t know, she never told her secret.

She had her dead sister’s first name in second place: Eugenie. My mother’s name was Geneviève (Je ne vis Eve). Phonetically, in the « Bird’s Language », it means I don’t live Eve or I can’t see Eve.

She ended her professional career as human resources manager in a large cooperative.

My real mission on this planet is to help healing wounded women through my words and my hands.

My life

This invisible wound that I was carrying shaped my life, directing me to women who had been hurt, sometimes touched without their consent.

I would have so much liked to heal my mother, to erase the suffering she went through. I was a child without being able to put words on what I felt. Later, I tried to understand and to heal her through other women I met.

Unwanted touching affects generations.

It is like an invisible black hole that swallows words, like a silent and deafening atomic bomb. Consciousness is still trying to understand. I swallowed a lot of psychology books when I was a teenager, just to put words on my trouble.

The schemes of my template

What is extraordinary is that we live in many eras and many dimensions united in our present. Society wants us to live in one dimension and produce money, using only our left brain and leaving us unconscious of our feminine part.

Those who use only their left brain are unhappy and easily manipulated. This suffering is a strong drive to discover more about ourselves. My mother’s suffering has been a strong motivation to understand what femininity is. . Also, in my birth chart, the Moon is on my rising Cancer while Venus is in Libra near my Sun, which gives a strong feminine aspect to my personality.

Nothing is negative, it is only the means for our consciousness to discover our unknown inner territories. The negative is considered a mistake compared to the positive which would be a perfect life, it is a lie. Positivity can be toxic when it is a way of refusing to listen to our shadow.

Your suffering is sometimes the way your consciousness uses to touch your shoulder and give you a direction. If the first sign is not seen, you receive a second one stronger and so on. When you have repetitive events or dreams, open your eyes or ears and question yourself. You are not victim, just deaf, or blind or just stubborn until something bad happens and compels you to listen.

How I found out what I knew

I read a lot but books give rise to more questions until you realize and act. What changed my life was taking mushrooms. They can help you to zoom out. They made me understand my template as a whole beyond the binary vision and gave me a great understanding. They urged me to act because my assumptions became certainties, enriched with new connections. I felt more connected to my true self. This is why mushrooms or other psychedelics are used to stop alcohol or drugs, they wake you up to your true self and your self image changes for good, then you cannot keep on with your old fake self.

I got rid of layers of outdated notions, the lies I have made my own, the fragmentation of self... Not the least of all, I dared to write in English in a publication and share some of my secrets. I dared to write about my intuition and vision and I founded Queen’s Children to speak out about how Sacred Feminine has to reclaim her power on this planet.

Everything fits together

It is like reading a book line after line, you remember but you can get to the back cover and touch your wholeness. We need self-love to love our shadows, our flaws, to stop belittling ourselves, to dare to express our personal note in the world symphony, to dare to use our personal power to the maximum. We are wondrous beings, but we are just handicapped by our ignorance about who we really are, and for that self love is essential, not narcissism but self radiant love.

We are reading our book of life, line by line, ignoring our soul, our template, with our left brain that can only get knowledge by sequencing. We are made of many dimensions. Synchronicities occur from other dimensions to remind us that life is a dream. We are part of a global and omniscient consciousness, like plants everything is in the seed and then unfolds in what we call time. Each of us is part of the unfolding of our missions, making each other discover that we are all part of a wholeness and that our present comes from before time existed.

We are a part of a puzzle reflected in myriad dimensions and our life on Earth is just a funnel in which the Unnameable has poured a divine and infinite nectar.

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