DAY 5 OF 31 OF THE NEW YEAR’S WRITING CHALLENGE
The Sickest That I’ve Been Physically in Many Ways Has Been My Third and Current Stint with COVID
The problem is that I feel better then worse again at the turn of a switch and my chronic pain adds to the pain
The last three months have been a constant but inconsistent sickness. There are days when my energy levels feel okay and I have enough energy to do the things I need to. Then there are days like the other day when both my partner and I were very feverish and slept for nearly the entire day.
The one thing that has constantly reminded me that I’m still sick is the constant cough that hasn't subsided much and persisted throughout the entire sickness. It is starting to feel like it’s drying out a bit but it keeps coming back and there are times when it sounds like I might actually cough up a lung.
Add to the fact that both my partner and I are dealing with chronic pain and illness and have an upcoming move that we have to complete into our new RV so that we can get out of where we’ve been stranded for the past month. We have had to endure and survive a lot in the last three months.
We haven’t been able to get much done in that timeframe either. I haven’t been able to get into a doctor and get something professional grade for this persistent cough and all hope hinges on us getting our stuff transferred into our RV and being able to get the help we require to get ourselves out of our current financial situation.
All of those factors certainly don’t help in aiding to get two very sick people better when they’re dealing with chronic pain alongside COVID while being immunocompromised.
It’s not a great feeling. There have been moments during this prolonged illness where I think that this virus might actually take me this time. I shouldn’t think like that but being sick for this long and for as sick as we’ve been at times hasn’t given me much hope if and when this goes away.
Sure, I may have been sicker at more specific moments other times I’ve been sick but the sheer length and all of the other circumstances surrounding this current situation have made it feel much worse.
There have been days when I’ve been outside running regular errands and not even eating much and I’ve just expelled all of my fluids and food right onto the ground just from wheezing from sneezing, coughing, and congestion and not being able to breathe. It’s tough to try and complete normal daily tasks even more than usual with our already existing physical limitations.
My partner just expressed to me today that the pain associated with our current illness combined with his regular pain is going to keep him from being able to help with any more work on the RV until he’s feeling better.
He’s had to take a couple of my prescribed pain pills to get through the day right now. He’s normally a rough-it-out type of guy so I know that when he needs medicine, it’s serious. The only thing that I really have to keep my mind off of the sickness most days is writing.
It’s now officially January 5th here on the East Coast of the United States so I decided to jump on my fifth writing entry into the challenge early in the morning to get a jumpstart on it. Here’s a list of the many people who’ve already taken on this writing challenge journey. Autistic Widower (“AJ”), Karen Schwartz, Adrienne Beaumont, Bernie Pullen, NancyO, Robert G. Longpré — [he/him] — Canadian métis, Katie Michaelson, Vidya Sury, Collecting Smiles, Brett Jenae Tomlin, and redkitewrites. Thanks to Keeley Schroder for starting this challenge for the New Year.
