The Priceless Breakthrough After Reconnecting with My Twin Flame

After my last piece on March 14th, where I explained that after 15 months of no contact, I felt ‘called’ to reach out to my twin flame, and to my surprise, he responded, leading to a nearly 3-hour conversation, so much has happened on a personal level. That phone call marked an immense breakthrough for me.

Without a doubt, God orchestrated that phone call to occur so I could address a deep-seated wound I had been carrying — the rejection wound.

During our call, he seemed eager to learn about me, displaying enthusiasm and even unblocking me from the places where he had previously blocked me. However, I found myself feeling a bit confused about where we could go from there because we didn’t discuss it.

A day after our phone call, I sent him a WhatsApp message simply asking how he envisions our connection and if he would be open to discussing it in person. I received no reply for three days, which triggered a new level of rejection wound I was not expecting.

I couldn’t believe I was back to experiencing such intense and conflicting emotions after speaking to him. My heart chakra was hurting really badly; the heaviness I felt was truly unbelievable, and I knew it was trapped energy that I needed to release along with some emotional wounds.

I had been practicing energy healing for about six months, so I had an idea of what to do to help myself.

After trying to ground myself with all the tools I had, such as spending time in nature, praying, and deep breathing, I was prompted to try a guided meditation. It wasn’t a conscious choice; it was simply the next one in my playlist, and I didn’t even read the title.

I decided to give it a try before going to sleep. All I remember is that the guide mentioned they would speak for about five minutes and then give us eight minutes to ourselves to observe what would come up.

During the meditation, I entered a trance-like state where I saw myself being chased by a large, transparent figure, taller than me and with no specific shape. In the meditation, I asked, ‘Who are you? Why are you chasing me?’

The figure responded, ‘I’m rejection, and you are addicted to me’.

I saw myself looking confused and asked, ‘What? What do you mean I’m addicted to you?’ It responded, ‘You tell me, why are you addicted to me?’

Immediately, an answer came to me: ‘Because you make me feel close to God.’

I questioned further, ‘But why? Why do I think being rejected equals being close to God?’ It replied, ‘You learned this as a child to cope with the immense pain your mother would put you through. Her rejection caused you pain, and the way you coped was by seeking closeness to God because you had no other means to cope. That’s why you associate pain with nearness to God, but you don’t have to feel pain to be close to God.’

I was in absolute shock when the meditation ended. Finally, I had my answers as to why I have always feared rejection and would embrace archetypes of men that would make me feel rejected, including my father.

I felt so certain that the best course of action was to block my twin flame, as I experienced an overwhelming sense of freedom and relief. In fact, I believed that this marked the end of his mission in my life.

I sent him a message sharing my findings, wishing him well, and telling him that I finally release him, then proceeded to block him.

The immense sense of relief I experienced was something I hadn’t felt in a long, long time.

He would vaguely cross my mind for the next seven days, but I continued to feel a lot of relief. I was no longer curious about him or his life. Then, the night before last, I had a dream.

I can usually distinguish between dreams that are meaningless and those that hold some value or message. In this dream, I found myself in some other realm, it was not this one as I was giving a ‘tour’ to a new member and I was telling them that this realm looks like earth but it was not.

I was surrounded by many people. A voice, coming from somewhere higher with no identifiable body, gave me a task: to find my twin. They mentioned his name, issuing it as a command.

In the dream, I questioned, ‘But how will I find him among all these people?’ The voice responded, ‘He will be the only one who looks lost, as if he doesn’t belong here. That’s how you can find him; he will look lost’.

Within that same dream, I encountered a bully from my kindergarten days, which reignited certain emotions within me and enabled me to act from a place of power rather than powerlessness.

Upon waking up, I realized that I had not found my twin in the dream. I distinctly recall that in the dream, I assumed a leadership role and was even recruiting others to help me find him, but our efforts were in vain.

After contemplating on this dream during the day, it felt right to call him at night time only to find that he had blocked my number everywhere so my call did not go through. I used my other sim card, he answered, and we spoke last night again.

I told him about my dream and how I was just wondering if he believes we may have something else to do before parting ways.

He sounded hurt when he recounted three or four times how he found out I blocked him. He expressed confusion and insisted that I should believe him when he says my life is much better without him. He urged me to find someone else because he doesn’t want ‘feelings’ to get in the way…

There is much more information about this call that I will explain in another piece, as right now I still don’t know what to make out of all this.

My current belief is that I have found more value in yearning for him than in my interactions with him.

The yearning throughout our separation has somehow fueled my desire to fulfill my life mission and strive for balance. I feel much better when I’m in no contact with him, and he seems to have hinted at feeling the same. Yet, we both yearn for each other, but we don’t know how to manage whatever arises during our interactions.

It’s odd to me how after the last two phone calls with him, I feel rather unsettled, seeing his stubbornness and inability to trust himself and this path. It is exhausting, to say the least.

I imagine I’m also in need of understanding why I feel this way, and it just seems like a never-ending battle. I received messages yesterday during my waking moments and through another dream, hinting that I need to tap into my inner power for something that is coming.

Pray for me. I hope we all face our battles with faith and strength. 🙏