The Price of Love
Grief never ends
Grief never ends … but it changes.
It is a passage. Not a place to stay.
Grief is not a sign of weakness. nor a lack of faith.
It is the price love.
Author Unknown
About 10 years ago, I lost one of the loves of my life. I met him at 24 years young. It was one of those “fall in love at first sight” romances, also known as infatuation. We had a couple of wild flings. I was a little more interested in getting to know him better. He already had his better. There’s an old Alan Alda and Ellen Burstyn movie Same Time Next Year. It was released around 1978 about two people who meet under similar circumstances. They go on to meet about every five years over the next 25 years. We resembled that relationship. It hurt every time he went back home, and I didn’t hear from him.
Then, at New Years’, not long before my 60th birthday, we met for what I thought was another tryst. That tryst turned into a wonderful, exhilarating, highly-charged three-year relationship. It was pretty amazing. I will love that man until the day I die. But we were not destined to be forever. We both knew it. It lasted as long as it could. We parted friends. It was painful. I was pretty heartbroken. He remarried about a year later.
There is a point to this story.

I’ve been writing about my Maggie Mae, my King Charles Spaniel, for several weeks now. I got Maggie Mae about a year after my love story ended. She filled my heart with love, joy, and companionship beyod belief. She wanted nothing more than to give love and sit in your lap all day long. All day long! She was the sweetest dog ever.
She got sick about a month ago. She was only six years old. It seemed far too young. I don’t think I believed I could actually lose her.
I had to make one of the most difficult decisions I’ve ever made yesterday. Maggie crossed the rainbow bridge to meet her other doggie friends in heaven. As she lay in my arms, it broke my heart yet again! Heartbreak times two!
Life is a balance of holding on and letting go … Rumi
I am lucky to have family and friends to support me. I am grieving, it is a passage, and I’ll get there! Grief is not a place to stay! I will love Magnolia forever and a day. She went by Maggie Mae. Little did Rod Stewart know he was her namesake. I will never forget her!
Take care, my friends, and love those who love you. Be kind. It can be a cruel world out there, and it can be a kind one. I chose kind! Thank you for reading my story!
Many thanks for my friends at Illumination and so many others.You have been my saving grace during this time and I know you feel my pain. Thanks for supporting me in every way! Dr Mehmet Yildiz Tree Langdon James G Brennan Joe Luca Liam Ireland Dr. Preeti Singh Maryam Merchant Stuart Englander Dew Langrial Penofgold Lucy The Eggcademic (she/her) Thewriteyard J.D. Harms and so many more. Many thanks to Linda Aileen Miller my dearest friend and has been with me the whole way!
Jannys heart, musings, and meaningful meanderings! Sharing my love, pain, joy and suffering. Mother, sister, wife, friend, lover of meaningful words. Perpetual child of the universe with a wild streak that can’t be tamed! What about you? Feel free to comment or reach out to [email protected]. Thank you for reading my work!
