Find Joy & Love

The past thirteen years have been filled with a tremendous amount of physical and mental pain along with fear, humility, shame, and hopelessness. There was an excessive amount of self medicating to numb the trauma and escape my insanity.

It has been a journey of delusions and torture which has kept my vulnerable mind imprisoned with immense loneliness and has kept my once lively and passionate spirit isolated, depressed and unmotivated.

With support and perseverance I’ve managed to find joy and love during spurts of stability throughout this time. Having been paralyzed and deadened by the result of chaos and trauma, I have now found acceptance and truth in my experiences, freeing me from the feared burden of an unfulfilling life.

On March 25th, 2020 I awoke in my room to panels of light hitting my walls and rays of light shooting across my ceiling and floor. My blinds were closed and the lights were off. I was confused and uncertain, believing this may be another delusion for my eyes only.

After reaching out for support and sharing videos of my room, I was soon put at ease because these senseless lights and shadows were also seen by those who are stable and clear minded.

A newfound sense of purpose, hope and energy enveloped my core and has ignited passion within me to once again strive towards health, everlasting stability and self love. The excruciating pain and fear that had dominated years of my life and thoughts quickly faded into an unimaginable gift of necessary hardships that would lead to a blessed life.