The Many Thoughts of the Fever
Scribbling down on my path to recovery
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For the past few days, I have been suffering from a fever and occasional cough. Initially, I was worried that it might be Dengue fever, as it tends to surge in our country after the rainy season.
It is a very fatal disease as it carries a higher fatality rate in our country. Luckily, it has been ruled out as a possibility. Instead, it appears to be a seasonal viral fever — a very bad one.
I am still on the road to recovery. I am hopeful that a combination of Western medicine and our traditional Sinhala remedies will lead to a full recovery in the next few days.
I have been prescribed various medications for bed rest. It has caused me drowsiness during the day. In addition to that, I have been experiencing difficulties in getting good sleep at night.
So, my mind has been surrounded by deep thoughts that seem to haunt me endlessly throughout the night.
One incident that I would like to address is in relation to my comment. While it may seem impossible, I am concerned that I may have unintentionally hurt DL Nemeril’s feelings with that my comment. If my words have caused any offense or hurt, I sincerely apologize to DL Nemeril and kindly ask for forgiveness.
This is my first attempt to write something after the fever. Until now, I have been publishing my draft posts. With a few final touches, they provided me with a breathing space. It’s always wise to have a few unfinished works as backups.
I struggle with scheduling posts when it is through the publications. It results in a lack of consistency. Nevertheless, I am grateful that I had something to publish to cover the last week.
As I said earlier, I had to endure long, sleepless nights last week. I think that it has affected my overall positivity in all aspects including my writing.
I can vividly recall a particular dream I had. It was the night when my King Coconut post was published. I could swear that as someone scrolled down, they passed my post and said, “Well, this idiot has shared yet another foolish post. They will never learn.”
It’s clear that my mind is playing tricks on me. Perhaps it has unearthed my hidden insecurities.
You may recall that I faced a similar issue in the past and ask your honest opinion. It actually helped me to uplift my positivity. However, it seems that they have resurfaced. By the way, if you have a different opinion compared to the previous day, I encourage you to express it freely here.
Perhaps the root of the problem lies with me. I have a short attention span, struggling to sustain a single activity for an extended period. This pattern has affected my previous blogs, websites, and hobbies like stamp and coin collecting. Only my interests in aquarium fish keeping and reading have managed to endure over time.
I still have plenty of topics to write about, including delving into our culture, folklore, and mythology. However, I must admit that if I don’t find a way to elevate my writing, the thing called ‘Recession’ may come into play in the long run.
It’s possible that my current state of mind is influencing these thoughts. In a couple of days, I may look back on this post and may have a good laugh. However, for now, it is important for me to write this down before moving to the next phase.
Nonetheless, I consider myself fortunate to have all of you. The past three months of this journey have been an incredible experience, and I am sincerely grateful for your unwavering support.
Unlike my previous posts, this may contain grammar and connectivity errors. Please forgive me, if you have encountered them.