The Lone Wolf

I was outnumbered from the start, but I will never stop subjagating the mountains that are in front of me. I must stay primed and ready for all that presents itself to me and even those things that do not. I shall never conform but rather learn from the conformities of others and understand that that can never/ ever be my path, for it so, it would be my utter demise; and I would have lived for absolutely nothing.

Although you spat at me, I turned the other cheek. I bowed humbly before you, yet that was not enough for you, you killed my truth and my honor, but I take up arms; and I take back what was taken from me / my freedom to choose. I will never crumble in front of my enemy. I must stay planted and firmly rooted in my own truth that I have sworn to uphold. For it I lose it, I would surely be lost.

Although rigid, I still have the flexibility to learn more and crave less. I will allow the darkness to penetrate my heart, only then will I find that I need both the light and the dark to fully survive this world. Without the dark, there can be no light. And without the light there can be no darkness. They both coexists for a reason: not to choose between the two but to become one with both. You should always be somewhere on the continuum between light and darkness.

My heart flutters cause I want desperately to fit in, but a lone wolf never ever fits it, he take what belongs to him and never loses his composure for the sake of being liked. His paws are always rooted in his own truth about himself and not the truths of others. He knows himself and he follows only one path and that path is of self discovery.

I walk this path, however how long it takes, I must continue, as we all must. I yearn to be with my love ones, but how could ever teach them if I can not find the answers. How can they survive, if I can’t find the remedy for living. The weight I carried is too heavy but the knowledge I bring back will be lighter and purer than any burden.

I was never meant to be a follower but a leader. Even when humbling myself before others, the energy force of the leader within me frightens the ones I humbled myself before. Sometimes I wish it wasn’t so, but I must accept my destiny and learn to breathe the air of a humbled, yet fierce leader. Even though my tactics are unique and secure, I must never forget that I am only one thought away from from losing it all. I must stay fully balanced at all times and when I lose focus I must quickly take back my power cause destruction awaits.

There will always be war, but it is up to me to learn the strategies to win. All battles are fought in the mind first. If I can’t win the attack in my mind, how can I ever defeat the war outside of me. I can’t afford to be a pawn in this endless battle. I must discover the antidote/ the cure.

The cure is, and has always been /to always be true to myself. I must pay close attention to what my spirit has to tell me and constantly restructure my thought and actions to the likeness of my spirit. The answers has always been near/ closer than I have ever imagined.

The answer will always be located inside of you / never outside. Find you under all the chaos and rubble that has accumulated inside of you. Feel what you need to feel but stay the course. If you want things to change in your life, it all starts from the inside. Nothing else means anything until you find YOU!!!! It’s a long journey but you can’t afford not to travel the distance.