The Illusion of Twin Flame Jealousy and its Karmic Cycle
Jealousy is an energy that rears its head most when it is looped in misunderstanding. This low-vibrational parasite is only able to attach itself to unsuspecting and vulnerable vessels (humans) at off-guard times. Welcome to another energetic parasite (or demon) that most deem lighthearted enough to joke about in the society we live in. It is actually one of the most intricate paths to understanding more about yourself and healing the self-worth core life lesson.
If you are noticing superficial jealousy, it is the first step to uncovering each layer of deeper meaning in this feeling. We notice ourselves caught up in the inner turmoil and reminiscent thoughts that burrow through our systems. Unpleasant, I know, but what do we do about it?
We don’t need to sit in this. Heal you. That’s it. Where did the jealousy start? Why is it there? Has it been triggered to reflect your low self-esteem, lack of communication, or something much deeper? Get to the bottom of it and allow it time to heal. Persevere through it, integrate the healing needed, and set loving boundaries as you explore this new path.
Still bothered? Don’t worry, I was too. It felt like I was still jealous, even though I knew at heart that I didn’t care. That’s when I sat with it and realized its extent. This was karmic energy. I could sniff it out of a crowd if I wanted to. It is the energy that appears as an aura for anything that doesn’t serve one’s life. It stings the heart the way lemon juice would a cut. It feels off, and there’s not one thing you can do about it. This is the next realized layer. Does it feel like something is ending? That message can show up energetically when a loop cycle or chapter is ending or closing. A new chapter is on the verge of unfolding. Major changes will be instilled. With my Twin Flame, this happened once I returned home to my soul and became my purpose and authentic self.
Karmic energy is a major part of duality. It is what unfolds through the matrix. What is actually happening is that you’re picking up who and what isn’t meant to step forward on this path. It’s a messenger for which soul contracts are up and about to be completed. It is also Twin Flame Union rising energy. Keep in mind that it comes in as abundance. It is purging out the rest of what doesn’t serve energetically just before it unfolds in this dimensional plane.
This knowledge and wisdom enters with work. It is helping your twin flame (and yourself) realize what’s not for them. Most times, the karmic involved (jealousy comes most strongly in romantic forms but can exist in others as well) is the previous version of you in the last chapter you were in prior to healing to the version of you now. There are some differences, but this is a test of your lessons. I shall share a deeply vulnerable chapter of my life, which repeated in some form a total of three times with my twin flame until I was ready in full preparation from Spirit to move forward.
My twin split from me a few years ago and started dating someone I had felt the energy of when we were still trying to make us work. It sent me spiralling. I had the darkest and most spiritual year of my life as my old self. I moved on to another, a karmic of the same calibre, which didn’t end well. I, then, tried to adapt parts of my twin flame’s karmic to my life because I thought that was what I was missing to bring him home (at the time). I went to an Ayahuasca ceremony for answers about myself. Nothing worked the way I was hoping it would, obviously. I was told there’s nothing to fix. I just focused on my life, fully aware of what I was feeling intuitively when she was around him. He didn’t help it at all by not telling me how he truly felt and what he really wanted. Either way, it wasn’t my business. I had to grow and work on myself. They broke up later the following year. Every vision, knowing, intuitive, and telepathic message I had was true. I still had growing to do, but my counterpart and I had a reunion.
Looking back, she helped me grow. I never wanted to be her or the way she treated him, but I can’t say I wasn’t ever in her shoes this lifetime. That was a past version of me when I couldn’t exist as me. My physical image and inner wounds were copied to her for his karma to learn. He studied and grew way past that version of himself. There was (and still kind of is) someone new around who is karmic. She tests my grounded ability to be me. This time, I unconsciously had no desire to go back to who I was, so I was patient and persevered. The truth came out later about their origin story and what he feels inside. I was intuitively right about it and, again, I let it go. I just wanted no part of that world (the old me) anymore. It is still a huge test, but it came in as I was preparing for this shift coming in. Spirit had already prepared me with all of the lessons I had learned prior. It took me two years after my initial relationship with my counterpart (with so many nights of grief, sorrow, anger, and loneliness) to become who I am now. The journey has blessed me, even with this test, so that I can sit here and write that I’m me, and that’s enough. We’re all enough as we are.
As a quick keynote and summation of what I learned and integrated for over a year of clouded confusion:
- Resist changing for anyone. Seriously. Your inner child will just learn to hate you more.
- Resist going back to who you used to be in a previous chapter of your healing path. That was reserved for that time. Assuming the heart isn’t closed off due to past hurts, we’re better people now.
- Karmic — anything will teach you too. They’re technically soulmates in the eyes of unconditional love. They will show up and not be allowed near you if your vibration is high enough. In my experience, you’ll never meet or be friends, unless something happened prior to the event for you to have done so. You’ll have a choice. Let yourself grow and move forward in life. Pinpoint the lesson, and you’ll find the way out. Your counterpart will follow.
- Have patience, no matter how hard it is. Your twin flame has a whole secret life of what they actually mean by their unaligned words.
- Stay grounded and focus on yourself and where you’re going. Your authenticity as a soul matters. That’s enough. This situation, too, will pass.
- It got better each time a similar situation arose. I knew I was growing and someday would pass this. It took 3 rounds and other healing (and shadow) work before I was consciously ready. This makes sense, as we have the soul, subconscious, unconscious, and conscious levels to align. That’s three jumps prior to my awareness. This is why I always say to be kind to yourself, because you’re doing the best you can. It’ll make sense someday.
This was a heavier topic again, but I felt so called to share my recent discoveries and past experiences for my life lesson. I still have to hold space for my counterpart and continue on the path as best as I can as my soul-self. I am grateful to be able to share all of this with you and help those of you who resonate most at this time. I believe in each and every one of you and send you light and love from Source for your path.
