The hardest part of our life is Now
It looked all green on the other side. On our side, it’s full of dust coupled with smoke, never-ending road work with signs of “Slow Down!” which nobody cares and ear-tearing horns from every depressed driver in the car. Every day we used to experience all these to drop her off at School (my little 2.5-year-old attending a playschool in our side).
Every Week, She used to catch something new that would make her sick for weeks. Antihistamines were what we used to get some sleep with her whenever her coughs were persistent till dawn. This was happening continuously in the last three months of 2023.
I was sleep-deprived, going to the office every three days a week, and being judged by my teammates for taking sick leave often(Why is she not serious about her work?). I never wanted to explain myself to those unmarried workaholics who kill their sleep with screen time. I never like anyone who gives up their sleep for mindless scrolling.
Guys !, You have a gift of time, use it for some purpose.
I loathed every single moment of being there, actually living there. I wanted to escape badly. So I can take a deep breath outside without getting a cough in the next breath. Am I exaggerating? Not. I’m dead serious.
In the middle of all these, to end all these, We got an exciting opportunity to move from our side to where we are right now. I’m not going to tell you my current place. That’s not the point. But It’s where we prepared ourselves to live. We are not forced to adjust our lifestyle. We chose to adjust, adapt, and give it a try.
Now, We are the most lonesome people in the world who are desperate to make some friends, including my kid. All my life even as an only child, I’ve never felt this overwhelming sense of loneliness. We miss everyone and refuse to believe that we can always make new friends.
His Parents, My Parents, Her grandparents, Her Friends, Our Friends, my unmmarried colleagues (who made me feel younger). Though our circle is so small, they are such a lovely people who have never made us feel alone.
That’s what a change looks like. Doesn’t it?
Change is supposed to bring happiness, sadness, exhaustion, disappointment, even if you are 100% ready for it.
I’m sorry that I wrote my journal here. Thanks for reading!
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